~~In Loving Memory of My Husband Danny~~ by Blush
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This is breaking my heart as I upload this pic
I have tried to go and re size it....it is not a very good pic and I tried my best to get it all corrected.......a lot of the grain would not come out.....so I did the best I could with it....As for me I am doing so so.......the new guy that has taken over his route came by to see if I had the keys to the paper box where he went to get his Sunday papers and I have no clue where they are..I haven't been back to my house to pick up his clothes anything..I have not been able to touch his sock drawer,t-shirts,his dress shoes under the bed.....and when the man left with the box I broke out into tears.........
I had such a wonderful husband.......He couldn't see well so every morning after breakfast he would have me read his daily meditation and the goal for the day........He would always try to fufill the goal before the end of the day.........sometimes he said I didn't help anyone today I didn't fufill my goal...but so many other days he did........He doesn't realize how much he is missed.......
I want to thank everyone on Rendo for the phone calls the food, flowers, money,cards,I am blessed with wonderful friends......My girlfriend has my home now in the hands of Homeland Outreach Society
to see if it will qualify to be fixed up..She told them what a bad state of repairs it was in...and they asked if they had funds will I allow them to tear it down and them build me a new home......I cried my eyes out......This is a Christian Ministry Group if they have fund it could be this coming summer or if not the next one..it depends on their funding..........
My Pet Scan also showed my cancer is still there...
But it hasn't got any bigger or any smaller and no more signs of any new cancer anywhere.....
I still have to pay off my hubbys funeral bill and also get a double headstone..Had no idea headstones were so high until I was looking them up and I looked at a lot....Right now money wise I doing okay........It is just my nerves that off balance.........been having really bad nightmares & I never dreamed until Danny died.......
I know I could of done this pic better justice had I had maybe better software to do it with..so please forgive flaws and the size..Just not too swift with that kind of thing.....I did try however...........
My 1st cousin Leslie lost her husband last week...
he had back surgery, came home started to hemmorage and he passed away...it was just too soon for me to back to the funeral home...I feel so sorry for her as they had a 10 yr old son...it seems some one has died every week since Danny has..
I am not ready to die yet........but if and when I do I know I will be going to heaven....I am going to fight this with all I have..I have gone to far to give up now....and I do know Danny would not want me to give up....
Will not be able to answer ebots Monday as I go to the Cancer Center........
Please continue to keep me and Bruce in your prayers.............
Again thank you for all your support and many acts of kindness through the death of my husband...I miss him so bad...Seems like he should be walking through the door things just aren't the same here.........so quiet and lonesome.........some times my heart aches so bad I can't stand it...but I keep on trucking...Just can't give up..........
All post work done in Paint Shop Pro9 enlarged some in Photobucket..........added borders and text........
Thanks for your comments and also if you favorite this image......
Hope everyone has a great weekend........
Hugs
Susan aka Blush~
Hubby
Born September 2 1954
Died June 15th 2012
complete obit at
www.foster-toler-curry funeralhome.com and click on obits
Comments (86)
Rhanagaz
All your writing just went to my heart. Hard times but you have a lot of got friends to help. I send all my best thoughts and wishes for you my dear friend. You tribute to your husband is something very unique and very fine..
copper-lady
This is a wonderful picture you did a great job, I can see such a prideful man. My heart breaks for you and it made me cry for what you are going through. If you need someone to listen or talk to let me know. I know we have never met but you seem like an awesome person you and your family will be in my thoughts. Much love and hugs.
GOLDILOCKSUK
Lovely memory to your hubby Susan and I agree he would want you to fight so you keep at it girl ok! Cathy xoxoxo
hmatienzo
You are in my prayers, dear, all the best!
adrie
Such a heartwarming tribute for your husband dear Susan, my prayers are with you my friend....hugs Adrie.
featherwitch
So terribly sorry for your loss Susan. Sending positive thoughts your way...hang in there! {hugs}
nefertiabet
The portrait painted you're fantastic! It is a sad story that I read from you. I wish you the very best of luck for the future and you stay strong, big hugs Elke.
durleybeachbum
A great tribute.
Savage_dragon
So sorry to hear...
EmmaAndJordi
Sorry to hear this words of pain dear Susan. What to say...When I hear someone that has lost a good person, I always think the same that the world needed that people and there are too many bad people here and always the best go pass :(( For sure your husband is watching you and helping you from the other side. Keep on moving forward with strength, that is what he may want for you. God bless you
stolta
My prayers are always with you, I am so sorry for your loss and your helth so bad as it is. I really hope all the best for you in the future,God bless you and your family my friend very big hugs from Iceland!!!!!!!!!!!!Very beautiful image!
boobunny
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your dear husband. I know it is a difficult time for you, and I can't even imagine. I don't get to your gallery much. Paul had pointed me in your direction a couple of years ago. He was very fond of you. He spoke only good things about you. I am sad to have lost him. I am glad you have many friends here at Rendo to comfort and support you. May God bless you and carry you through your darkest days. I will go and fav you, if I had done that when Paul wanted me to come see you work and get to know you I would have been more up to date with things. Big Hug, Becky
Arah
Susan, I'm Praying for you! :) God Bless and Comfort you! :) hugs
MrsLubner
So you don't think I was too busy... here I am. You know I think this is a great portrait and I didn't know Danny, but we had to have had a lot in common - he was only a year younger than me. You are an amazing lady and Danny was lucky to have had you by his side.
Blazerwiccan
I am so sorry to hear everything you are going though ((Hugs)) I truly hope things get better for you.
mistressotdark
even though I don't really know you, my thoughts are with you.
mps
He sounds like a great guy, very sorry for your loss.
mikeerson
this is a great portrait.... I could of sworn I faved you as an artist, I figured you hadn't been around and to come to your gallery and see you've been posting - I feel bad... we all need support and I just wanted you to know I didn't forget you. ...when you lay down at night to sleep, don't think of missing him... it stresses you out, causing you to look for him in your dreams and he's not there... instead, feel your dreams are a world to wear you can go spend time with him - IT WORKS... when I think during the day: did I dream last night? If I can remember a scene I usually can pick up other parts of the dream.... my Mother was the most important person in my life - when I try to think if I dreamed - my Mother is always in my dreams and she's been gone 11 years... try it. You have to sleep a third of your life, you might as well try and find time with Danny there - he can live in your dreams.... don't be scared when you go to sleep, look at sleep as a well deserved vacation and go spend time with him... eventually you will master your dreamworld and sleep in peace - and enjoy it. Think of different memories you have of him every night.... for starters, as you lay in bed picture the two of you at your favorite restaurant, try and picture what he might have worn, where he was working - just that one moment in time... next night, what movie did you go to at the theatres? next night, a car trip.... life is what you make of it and the dream world you can do anything with.
JaneEden
This is a wonderful tribute to your beloved husband dear Susan, I will always keep you in my prayers. Sorry for my late comment, hugs Jane xx
mapps
wonderful dedication :-) hugs, Mike
clbsmiley
Oh my dear friend, I hope all goes well for you at the doctor. I send you hugs.
HeavensBlonde
He rest with Angels and yes you have to keep on keeping on and you are a most amazing strong lady and my prayers with you always. God Bless you
Jean-Luc_Ajrarn
So sorry. :( As for better software, Adobe is giving away the CS2 suite (Photoshop, Illustrator, InDesign, ...) now. If you'd like and get a chance to, check this link: http://www.adobe.com/downloads/cs2_downloads/index.html
Umbetro38
No more words - have tears in my Eyes - Your Husband is always and forever in your Heart
linwhite
Oh, Susan, I'm so very sorry. I know he was such a wonderful fellow from all the things you've told us over the years. So sad that this happened. Thoughts and prayers are with you.
whaleman
I never saw this post earlier and now you are both gone. RIP for both of you together, finally.