This is the End by HADCANCER
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As some of you know already I am mentally ill, so sometimes I say things that may hurt other people. I remain over 2000 behind. I was made aware today that I had hurt a dear friend so much they removed there render. This result is just not acceptable to me. I try but it is not good enough, so sadly I am leaving this site forever. I have already turned all my favs off so I will not be aware of your up loads any more. I will however slowly whittle down those 2000 plus emails. Once I do that I will shut down my gallery after I get all the renders as I lost many of them when my hard drive broke. I was surprised at how many friends have left the site. I will still be posting to Fantasy Attic, DreamSlayers Artworks,Shifters, and likely over at RDNA and Diviant Art, I want to thank: Note I could not nae everyone as rendo has limit.
Flaviok
STEVIEUKWONDER...has a style that is all his own. I liked it.
RNKarenER...had cancer too, so we were soul mates
Shadownwet..I think my very first friend here,. I will dearly miss him.
Antonio57
Bossie_Boots
Syltermermaid
Trancesl
1010
Magick_Lady...an early friend here
Mondwin
Mikeerson...see I spelled it right
zil2008
Fidelity2
lunchlady..a sweet angel of rendo
crad
debbielove.. my teacher on airplanes
densa
Steff_7 was one of my closest buddies and played art story war, but he is gone now.
mgtcs
calum5
SaintFox...big big hug
Virtual_World...another big hug
rikomortis...a funny guy
elianeck
tennesseecowgirl....such a sweet lady
photogmark....wish I had his talent and job.
J5ive....thanks for the goodies
pixeluna....such an angel and what a talent
vyktorhria also and angel and great talent
three_grrr...looked forward to the comments
Trifid—just so kind and she liked my music too.
Rainastorm....love her to death
RodS...makes me laugh when I am down
munich68
Nonsolum....my newest friend
addy
adrie
AidanaWillowRaven
akulla
Alex_Antonov
angelafair
Artemis
aureagle...loved the Johnny Depp avatar
bakapo...very sweet
Blackhearted
Buffalo1
crender
Crudelitas...another one where I loved the avatar
Darkwish
DaewinsMishap...wish I had his talent
doarte...always had a different take on things
drifterlee..very nice
e-brink
eekdog...wish I had his talent
efon_241
Eldeago
ellin14oaks...I wonder how her cancer turned out
elianeck...if I had the money might switch to DAZ based on her renders
fabiana..an angel of rendo, so sweet and talented
Faemike55...nice guy
Fallen21
Godin..another angel of rendo and oodles of talent.
GOLDILOCHSUK
Jean_C
Jollyself... talented and a Chicago Bears fan
KnightWolverine....talent with a heart of gold
leoshades...he was keen
lwperkins...loved her art and she gave me some help.
Lyne an angel and soul mate
Madbat
magnus073 another heart of gold
MarciaGomes...sweet Marci
MarWeiss6
mauk
mistressotdark
MSTene
NekhbetSun...I wonder what happened to her.
Nitegrafix
ragouc
renecyberdoc...all around nice guy who must spend his entire day here.
RGUS...my idol
Rhanagaz....fuuny guy
Robert0921....made Mondays fun
schonee...another angel here and such a talent
scifibabe....got to love someone with that handle
scooby37....one of the nicest people I have ever met her. He is also a rae talent.
Seaview123....had some fun site mails with him, and I salute his service.
SIGMAWORLD
Soulpainter...great name
Star4mation
starlightpaint...gone now but my idol when I first got here
Structure
tanburro....fantasy artist extraordinaire.
Tavia3D
thecytron
Thetis
Tholian...must have liked Star Trek
UteBigSmile...I suspect she is to good for Rene'
webdance.....danced into my life
ZigZag321
zil2008- always a kind word. I wish she would have
Comments (42)
magnus073
Rick, you are a dear friend to so many people here and I'm sure I speak for everyone when I say that I hope you change your mind. There are always going to be times where we hurt those most dear to us, because we are only human. The important thing is it wasn't intentional, and I'm sure this friend will realize that soon enough. Heaven knows I put my foot in my mouth from time to time and say something stupid to hurt family and friends, it is just part of life. All we can do is apologize to those we hurt, and try to learn from the experience. More times than not it will make us closer with those we hurt because once they see you are really concerned about what happened a bond develops as the trust builds. No matter what you decide to do Rick, hopefully you and I can stay in touch. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers during this time.
eekdog
man dude, don't freaking leave man. your friends are here and we can understand a mistake on comments, it's not the end of the world my friend, that's dec 21st. i hope you reconsider your choice Rick. love this image. se ya soon ok??
Jean_C
I posted you a mail, Rick: "I hope you decision is due to momentary sad thoughts, and you'll stay at Rendo. If this is not the case, I'll be sad not to receive your comments and your advices, not to receive links to music that I enjoy listening to, and no longer see your so creative pictures! See you soon at Rendo, I hope!"
GrandmaT
The answer is not to walk away but to face the fact that we all screw up, sincerely apologize and make it up to your friend by posting more brilliant art and comments. Your music links are much appreciated. This too shall pass.
renecyberdoc
hey man dont be like that this is your family,you cannot leave just for maybe having said a stupid thing. i also had tmes when i used the wrong words or responded somewhat harsh and i was always able to manage my way out of it. cmon man this is one of the only pleasurse you have left and you know it.change your mind.and dont be a puzzee we love ya man.
KnightWolverine
Please Reconsider Rick.......... a friend as you have so stated.... KnightWolverine...."talent with a heart of gold"..... really believes you can mend this as it was not intentional... misunderstandings are correctable!.... Though this is your decision and as a friend and fellow artist I will respect what ever you decide to do....I'm hoping you reconsider as it will be sad to see you not among us and sharing your daily incites of wisdom/humor/songs and everything that makes you YOU! Sure hope this is not the last we hear from you! Your Friend.. ~Will~
Trifid
I can only hope you will think that over again, my dear friend Rick. You have been a great friend to me since the first time we met and you have my greatest respect too. Don't give up, Rick! We all do mistakes, and real friends don't close down their galleries on base of a single comment that went wrong in a ceratin sense, my humble opinion. Talk that over with your friend, whoever it was, we know you are facing hard times at the moment. So I strongly encourage you to stay. Your friends are here!!!!! Cheers, -Trifid-
RubyT
I don't know you, but I know this one thing......friends, real friends forgive and forget. I have a motto...."how important is this?" is what I ask myself when a friend has made a mistake with me. I've said things I wish I hadn't, but real friends forgive and grow from the experience. Leaving is not the answer. The answer is you made a mistake, you owned the mistake, you appologized for the mistake and now you hold your head up and remain right here. It's apparent you have many friends here. Hang on to them. Oh and perhaps your brutal honesty will help your friend's art get better. Next time you'll know to be more gentle in your critic. Artists have these egos ya know. I hope you listen to your friends and stay.
bebopdlx
Artwork itself is reason enough for you to stay. Nice work here.
drifterlee
Hope you change your mind!
webdancer
We all do things we're not proud of, but don't just walk away. That's not how to make it right. Please don't leave. Please reconsider. Who will lift our day when we don't get that song title from you? You touch more lives that you know.
Nonsolum
LOL eckdog is right as Mayas were : end is on its way for the 21st. Maya reminds me something in 3D but I don't remember what : a lost friend ? I don't know. If somebody can help ? The worse in that case, is that I will have to ask my own naughty Santa Claus for an iPod or an old wakman, a gramophon or something to listen to the music...in the future. But as I know him, he is able to send me one of his groupie to replace "you" and all! :-p I'm not sure it could help as virtual she will be. :-) So, as you want, this is your quest my old newest friend I met for the first time... Take care. Cheers. Song ? "To dream, the impossible dream, to fight the unbeatable foe... And to write the unwritable wrong..." ... ;-) And thanks for the big better list, ever ! :-D
adrie
Dear Rick, please do not leave we all make mistakes and wrong comments. But you are a special friend who have always wonderful images and awesome song links to you tube. I agree with all others here....please think it over and try to forget what is happend....only real friends do forget and forgive....the mistake that you made my dear friend.....i hope you will come back. Hugs Adrie. BTW I LOVE THIS COOL PORTRAIT WORK RICK.
cvrad
Rick, You know I'm not very active on here but I do enjoy seeing your artistic interpretations of song titles. And I can see by the long list of people in your comments that you know these individuals quite well and from all the pleas and comments above I know that you will be sorely missed in the galleries. Plus if you leave that leaves me with only 6 peoples that comment on my uploads. We all make mistakes no one is perfect the object is to learn from them and become a better person. I'm sure your intentions were not to be mean sometimes with only text being read and not the tone of voice that it is being said in can be misconstrued and misunderstood as a joke or as just light teasing. I'm sure you have already apologized and the fact that you feel so bad that you are willing runaway from your other friends in shame and guilt should make this friend realize that your apology was genuine and that you really did not intend to hurt there feelings. If they are the one that is forcing you to leave then maybe they are the one with the problem and need to not take things so seriously. (now I will have to leave also for saying this. The truth hurts sometimes. But I would rather be a respected truthful friend than a 2 faced liar!) "so please don't go don't go, don't go away please don't go don't go, I'm begging you to stay" Please Don't Go by the KC and the Sunshine band BTW GREAT IMAGE
nitegrafix
Awesome! amazing work.....I really like this piece!
redflame
please change your mind and stay i will miss you greatly.
mikeerson
you know I love ya man... just wish you'd quit fighting with yourself... that right hook and left hook must be one hell of a thing to defend against. go kiss the guy in the mirror - no, it doesn't make you gay. Hey look, I'm still alive and you never said sorry - miracles do happen.... Face it, this is your home, you're stuck here... now go do the dishes and think of something good to post... and when you come back start posting some jokes til the end of the year, we could all use a good laugh.
Faemike55
Damn Rick! I'm having a hard time writing this, reading what others have said, much better than I could ever, asking you to pleases reconsider your decision. it's a bitch to try and type when your eyes are tearing up. Through thick and thin, you've been there for me, now I'm here for you. I understand the depression crap - hell! I go through it on a daily basis. I know that this is not the greatest of seasons either, I don't know about you, but I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder, which really makes my depression worse. So yeah! I know what you're going through. Hang in there Rick, Please?! Stay with us. I love you music links when you respond to my uploads - they're so appropriate to what I do. judging by the comments above mine, you've some people who really care for you, just like I do. ps great fracken' image
RodS
Wow, Rick… Really a shocker reading this my friend. There's not a whole lot that I can say that hasn't been said by a lot of your other friends above. I add my voice to those who are asking you to reconsider this decision; the place will not be the same without you. Your art, your humor, and your links to appropriate music have become a wonderful part of many of our lives here at Renderosity. Sometimes we need to just stop, step back, take a breath, and just do some soul-searching. If that's what you need to do, take all the time you need, bro. But do consider coming back into the fold; there will always be a place for you here. Whatever your decision, I respect you, and you will always be a friend! I'm honored that I could at least bring a little happiness to you when you were down. Just remember there are a lot of people here that care about you, and will be just a little less happy by your absence. All the best to you my friend!
MarciaGomes
I do not understand what's going on my friend,I think it is a misunderstanding, You should reconsider staying at Renderosity,You have many friends here if you will miss out and will no longer have his works, you can not go who will let me listen to music?I love music that puts you in the comments. you should not go you have to stay. I hope you understand what I wrote, I used the translator does not know if this correct. His work is fantastic.
SIGMAWORLD
Sehr traurig zu hören. Vielleicht überlegst du dir es nochmal. Ansonsten wünsche ich dir Alles Gute!
AidanaWillowRaven
But if you go, how can I see your amazing work?
bakapo
this image is painful and I'm sorry you're in pain... but please re-think and stay! I like seeing your art and reading your comments and visiting your song links. mistakes happen and people get hurt, but they heal and friendships heal... it's all a growing process. nobody is perfect, but you're perfect enough to feel upset and that says a lot about you. please, stay! hugs
Magick_Lady
I hope this just momentary sadness or something , if you leave or decide to stay you'll always be in my heart and be remembered Rick
lunchlady
Yup, I have to agree....please don't go. Do you know how much I look forward to your comments and music???!!! Love you bunches, Rick, and I hope you stay!!
1010
Rick, I find that some people just take themselves to seriously. They have to lighten up. Please take care and post when you feel good about it again. hugsssssss
debbielove
I agree with all the people above mate.. Don't go.. I've had the same said to me actually so won't tell you otherwise.. I too have noticed some people who used to comment and be around here are no more, but I have now others that comment ...in fact I often get more now than before.. And I'm sure its happened to you mate.. I can't say I've upset anyone, if thats true, or I never noticed (sorry if I did!) but one Render is not the end mate.. please reconsider! And, I can't believe you put my name on that list!!!! Thanks.. That alone meant loads to me! See!!!! You did good! Rob
Seaview123
Hey man, I came out of semi-retirement to weigh in... Keep on posting your stuff, Rendo won't be the same without you.
calum5
Hey Rick. , sorry I'm not around but have always appreciated your artwork and your visits to mine . I've fallen out with people here too , I think everyone does . Don't worry about what you have no control over , try to fix it ! If you can't just carry on accepting what it is and put it down to condition related . It's not your fault , you didn't design the brain .. You just ride it . Best wishes man , Regards cal
rikomortis Online Now!
Dude, I'm not gonna beg you to stay, who am I to interfere with your master plans. But i would like to thank you for The support of my work,the art and music you share, and for the friendship. Choose your path, in the end when we step into the grave the only person who is responsible for their own happiness is oneself. ( But it would suck to see you go so stick around!) BTW this whole commenting game on rendo gets a bit out of hand. Nuff said