Sweet Emotions by HADCANCER
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Well nothing has changed since my last post. I have stopped talkng almost all my meds, so that should insure I kick fairly soon. I do not think the smoking will even get to me as My heart will give out first. Started drinking again but crap of course I do not get a buzz. Another thing taken away from me. Good thing is I have lost my appetite and continue to lose weight. I now weigh less than when I got married another 30 ils and I will be down to my high school weight . Still taking my pain meds my manly med and my phych meds.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V87ZNemLyRk
Comments (15)
Faemike55
This is a great image Rick. regarding your decision, while it is yours to make, I really wish you would reconsider your course of action. You are a fine artist and a friend. please think about it.
Jean_C
Sad but very touching image, great work, Rick! Take care of you.
ronmolina
Nice pic! Sorry to hear of your troubles.
cvrad
I hope you reconsider your decision to give up on life! I understand that you are feeling hurt and angry and that this is a way of getting back at her but it is not in anybody's best interest. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary situation there are people you can talk to from friends and family to ministers and priest to social workers and suicide hotlines. Please get help your telling us what you are doing is a plea for someone to intervene so please take this as an intervention and stop going down this path of self destruction for all of our sakes. Take a walk in the forest go to park and watch the children playing go to a field and listen to the wind. Their is so much out there and you have so much to offer this world please get some help. I'm talking from someone who has been in a similar place where I thought the only way out was dying but it got better. I accepted the things I couldn't change and and changed the things I could. I'm still under a lot of the same situations but I don't focus on what I can't change like my marriage and financial situation but, on the day to day improvements in my self in mind body and spirit. I turned 45 in June and I can honestly say that I have never been in better health I could do more pushups and situps than when I was in the military. I'm eating better and feel better about myself and have more self confidence than I have ever in my whole life. My family sees It, my friends see it, my colleagues see it, and I feel it. So I ask you again as a friend as a fellow human being to please reconsider this downward spiral into the abyss?
magnus073
Sorry about everything you're going through, Rick. The best I can offer is to keep you in my prayers my friend
eekdog
well Rick, that is not great news my friend, i have you and all my rendo friends in thoughts and prayers. hope you gain some munchies, maybe smoking grass will help. has helped me in the past when i could not. i can't smoke it now because of the perm job search, even though it is legal here in colorado now. maybe move here so you can without breaking any laws. great image BTW..
renecyberdoc
just dont give up ,this is not the solution,slowly fading away.
drifterlee
You need to get help! I thought about suicide too, but I realized I would be just hurting other people. In a four months span, I lost my mother, four of my beloved cats, and my horse. I also broke my back and ribs. My husband is a jerk, too. Don't give up!!!!! Start taking your meds!!!!!!! We care about you!!!!!!! Site mail me if you want to talk. I'm always here.
RodS
It brings me to tears reading this, Rick! You have many friends here who care about you, bro. Life is precious - don't throw it away, my friend. I can only agree with what everyone has said above. This artwork is a testament to your talent, my friend. Stay with us...
doarte
Wonderful image considering your difficulties, I agree with most posts, please reconsider your decision. You have a strong following here that care about you, including me!
Cyve
Marvelous creation and fantastic composition !
Crudelitas
It makes me so sad to read this. Rick, even if it does not look like it at the moment, life is good and beautiful and it is when you're with us. Take care of yourself! A terrific picture, very nicely done!
Magick_Lady
:)))))))))))
bakapo
the lighting in this is fantastic. I like her wings and hair. nice work! hugs
three_grrr
This is an awesome image Rick, and I pray that things are better for you today .. as you can see, I'm way late posting, but the fact that I found a relatively recent image from you gives me hope that you HAVE reconsidered, and HAVE chosen life, and that things are better. It would be an awful thing to lose you, there's been way too much loss in my late this last year .. choose life my friend, death is not a good alternative.