Light Breaking Through (In Memory of Lars) by anahata.c
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With deep sadness, I report that Lars Juliussen, aka LBJ2, passed from our midst, from cancer, a week ago. He was buried April 30th. He was 53 and a half years old. Many of his friends had tried to reach him the last several weeks---but he simply wasn't able to respond. He was too ill. Thanks to his friend in Denmark, I got the news May 1. Lars is no longer with us...not in body. It was way, way too early...
It took me all yesterday to do this dedi. I couldn't find the image or the words. I wanted to convey "light breaking through the cosmos". (I hope I conveyed some of it, below.) It's just the feeling that, this deep and unbelievably calm, loving soul---who uttered not a word of bitterness nor blame through his near 2 years of battle---died so young, without wanting to burden anyone, without a cry of anguish. He gave thanks to all of us, with his quiet love, that gentle caress he had in his words, like a mountain, only gentle. He wrote, of the dedis people gave him: "It gave me a loving warm feeling...that more people than I thought...care about a nobody like me..." The periods are his: As if he were stopping to get the strength to say more...And "a nobody like me"? Lars, you were bigger than the whole cosmos, you had a deep gentle heart filled with love that whispered from you and gave everybody such joy even when you were suffering so much...if you were a 'nobody', than I was a speck of sand...
Do you know...when he found that I was Jewish, he bothered to write---while ill---a long story of his grandparents saving Jews in Denmark (from the Nazis). He wrote it when he hadn't slept a day (from pain) and half drugged on morphine. But he wanted me to know something beautiful. And simply because I had the accident of being born to a specific people...Yet when you visited Lars' gallery, you saw a global soul: The real thing, not just the 'word'. He touched all peoples, all cultures, and so many types of art...and he was wildly funny, even sly in the best sense of the word. But he had this huge spirit---I often told him he reminded me of his dear friend, Mina (NekhbetSun), who also passed from cancer; and of his other friends here who have such huge hearts. He loved to hear that. I adored Lars, but wasn't as close to him as a number of his other RR friends; and I truly want you to know I'm honored to be among all of you. Lars left his light everywhere. It's a joy to bask in its glow...
He was buried in the Danish town, "Gillelege". It sounds like Galilee. There's no connection---I looked it up---but it doesn't matter: Lars was a loving Christian, so somehow being buried in a place that 'sounds' like Galilee is a special gift. He was so accepting of all faiths, and of no faiths, he was so global---he told me, if he survived, he wanted to form a globe-wide "artists around the world" movement, all done on the web. He must've known it was a dream---given his ravaging condition---but he wrote it with so much love, so much hope for the future...And then, Gillelege is a small town off the North Sea, so rustic and beautiful. Yet, like Lars, it's a 'quiet' beautiful, beauty that hugs you rather than shouts. He grew up there, and I'd like to think that the soil will yield exquisite flowers from now on, to honor this dear, dear soul...
Word-limits call, I can't write forever...so let me say, Lars: I wish that your faith is so very right, and you are now in the arms of something so dear and loving that all you went through will become light. I knew you only a short time, but you were stunning to me...so honest, so brave, and so loving. And from what I've seen of your friends, you were dearly loved. Rest in peace, dear soul, and know you will shine forever...and when we fail to show our light, remind us in your gentle way, that it's why we're here in the first place...with deepest humility and love, mark
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Comments (26)
miashadows
So very beautiful Mark and beautiful words....feels so peaceful.......sorry to hear, he sounds like a very special soul.
MrsRatbag
Mark, you have created a truly wonderful memorial for Lars. I did not know him at all, which I regret. He sounds like a truly extraordinary human being. I'm sorry he had to go through such suffering and leave us so soon; it happens all too often. Your beautiful artwork is a joy, beauty in darkness followed by a passage to soft sweet light, perfect in every way. Thank you for compassion and love.
Cyve
HO NO !!!
LivingPixels
So very touching Mark and such a beautiful piece to honour his memory so beautiful my friend!!
durleybeachbum
I didn't know Lars, but you wonderful words make me wish I had. The image is a masterpiece, which seems to convey all that you say.
helanker
Mark, This is such a beautiful tribute, you have made for your friend Lars. Your words are very trouching and caring. I knew him only a little bit from your always kind words about him. It is so very sad, he had to pass away so early in his life and I do feel sorry for his family and relatives. But I am glad you honoured him so beautifully. He deserved that. Thank you for that.
calico_jester
.... lovely thoughts and image for a grand person .... may his images and memory help each of us through our daily struggles ,,, Shalom
lyron
Great tribute!!
nickcarter
Thanks Mark for your beautiful tribute, both Visual and words, to our friend Juliussen! May he happy ride to Valhalla artists !
bakapo
oh, this is the most beautiful tribute and dedication to Lars. your words are touching and heartfelt. I just know he can feel the love and care you put into this wherever he is now. he was a special part of my life for many years and I will miss his gentle soul, forever. thank you for sharing this with us, it is beautiful.
eekdog Online Now!
as we both have seen with all the dedi's, lots miss our friend Lars. so sad that that deaded C word takes another good human life. but we all know that in heaven there is no C word, no pain. hope you're enjoying the wonders of heaven, Lars. a very wonderful fractal tribute to our friend, above he is smiling upon us. thanks for the info on him.. take care and god bless.. Steve
romanceworks
I'm so very sorry to hear about Lars. He was far too young to leave this world and all who loved him. His gentle spirit glows in your tender words of real caring, and your moving artwork. There is calm in the deep blue, and also a kind of excitement, the color is so rich and vibrant with hope. It wraps everything in a blanket of peace and comfort. And I also see a kind of galaxy of worlds, all mingling together in orbs of color and light, as if inviting Lars to come and explore the new adventures that await him. The center orb shines like his unique spirit, a light filled with all the memories and art, and experiences of his lifetime that he shared with others, a spirit-light that will shine brightly in the hearts of all those souls he touched. And I'm sure his spirit is shining even brighter, and beaming with a big smile from your beautiful tribute, Mark. It is such a gentle and loving farewell to a friend.
flavia49
outstanding tribute
Richardphotos
very fitting and moving tribute to a very fine person and artist. the community here has lost so many artists over the years to cancer. one even lost his life to a bicycle accident. never easy saying goodbye to even an internet friend
anaber
Thank you very much for your words and your image for Lars, Mark. The courage and will with which Lars faced the ordeal that he went through during his illness, always sharing beauty and love, shows how special he was. As a person and as an artist. It is an example of Life... And in the darkness of your image, Mark, i see colors like in a 'dancing', in a cosmic movement...and it seems that you drew his fantastic dream, of unifying the globe-wide artists into a world movement. And i see the lights becoming into a still more strong light...reflecting in our world as if it was his spirit. It is the most wonderful tribute that i ever had seen. You honored him with a masterpiece and i am sure that he is smiling to You. To Lars, my deepest thoughts and my gratitude for everything that he taught us and for all the love that he gave us. Peace, Love & Light.
goodoleboy
Mostly what Denise/MrsRatbag said, Mark. I never heard of, knew of, was aware of, or seen the work of Lars before I read of his death. You have dedicated quite a eulogy in his memory.
jocko500
this is a wonderful words and work for his memory. we will miss him.
beachzz
Your dedications are always so deep, so real, so full of that person's life. I did not know Lars at all, but reading this makes me wish I did, and makes me feel I missed knowing a wonderful human being. I'm sorry he had to suffer and leave this earth so soon. Your image is powerful, almost a vision of his soul soaring heavenward. Moving and beautiful words and an image to match.
Chipka
What an amazing dedication and what a wonderful image. The whole thing works together so incredibly well, as a dedication and as an affirmation more than anything. It's always a difficult thing to learn of someone passing; even with strangers, there's a sense that something has been lost, in terms of what the rest of us might get, but this is a fantastic antidote to that particular feeling as it's a celebration more than anything else. I didn't know Lars and I am not that familiar with his work, but I like what I've seen and I love the way in which you describe it. What you've written is quite a gift, and it's one of the best dedications I've read in a long while. As for the image itself, it shimmers and gleams; it's as brilliant as a jewel, but not as cold, not as inorganic, sterile, or "austere" in the way that jewels are, no matter how much we try to pretend they're not. This goes in the opposite direction and actually pulses with life and with feeling, and that's the best thing that art can achieve, especially art that serves as memory and evocation. I suspect--from what you wrote--that I would have enjoyed knowing Lars; I immediately made a connection with NekhbetSun (Mina) when I read of Lars' passing. And it's always a double tragedy when someone artistic is snatched away. What you've created (in both image and in word) is brilliant, moving, and truly compassionate, and that's one of the best things in human existence that anyone can ever hope for. This is moving and it's brilliant.
three_grrr
When I first read your site mail to me, I thought of Mina (NekhbetSun) and of Dirk (D.C.Monteny) and now Lars has joined many of the artists we've known and loved over the years ... You've written such a beautiful affirmation, a celebration really, of Lars' life. You've created a reflection of the person that is Lars. You've captured the light that Lars was and is with your word-painting and your digital brush. I suspect Lars is smiling and nodding his head as he sees the love and caring and the admiration you've poured into this beautiful celebration of the Man. He will be missed deeply.
UteBigSmile
A nice way to say goodby to our good friend Lars - May his soul rest in eternal Peace - Gonna miss him a lot!
magnus073
Mark, thank you so much for creating this warm and wonderful dedication for Lars. He was one of those rare people that you meet in life that leaves a lasting impression, and his presence will be greatly missed in the gallery by all who loved him. My apologies for taking several days to post but this was something I could do until it felt right. Thinking back on some of the childhood stories he shared with me almost brings me to tears and makes me realize there won't be anyone like him in this community ever again. I know a few people can be critical of this community but for myself it has always been a treasured place. Lars and several other dear friends here who have passed away over the years remind me how blessed I truly am to be a part of this magical place.
rbowen
You created a very beautiful piece of art that reflects light, peace, and beauty. A message to reach eternity, with love for the spirit of a dear friend. I am deeply moved by your wonderful dedication!!!
DennisReed
most moving!
emmecielle
Mark, thanks for your lovely and touching tribute to Lars! He would be happy to read your beautiful words, even if incredulous of all this love for him. He surely would have appreciated your beautiful work of art! Even for me it was a great friend and I will miss it! a hug mc
bmac62
A wonderful piece Mark. There is something going on here. I was just running my eye down your RR gallery page and your image jumped out at me and cried, "Open me!" I did not know Lars and now wish I had. I looked up his little town of Gilleleje and read its Wiki to include the hiding of the Jews...what people, what a place, what a time. Appreciated your link to LBJ2. I viewed some of his Vue renders to include comments by others and spent extra time on his last upload in late March. He made it to his favorite season of Spring...something very poignant about this. I love your art above. I can see Lars standing on the beach at Gilleleje...looking outward bound...freed from his world of pain and full of faithful, eternal hope. Thanks for taking the time to bring closure to us regarding his situation. Thanks for celebrating his art and who he was. I am all the richer for your most thoughtful efforts.