Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
Comments (19)
beachsidelegs
Stunning image my friend :)
A_Sunbeam
Great fractal creation! Love the textures and colour.
mininessie
big hugs dear!
kgb224
Outstanding work Mies. God bless.
kepp
excellent piece
farmerC
Mies je hebt een geweldige serie weggezet,
daar hoort deze zeker bij.
helanker
Such a lovely fractal. You are so good at this :-) I do hope Mieke some day will find a proper solution for you, dear Jacomina.
Glendaw
Oh she is very pretty Mies.
She has the most beautiufl delicate body and wings !
Like how she is resting upon the top leaf watching over the
gorgeous landscape surrounding her.
So happy to hear Mieke is giving you the support you need.
Getting to know each other has some advantages indeed.
Sounds like your sprititual strength is keeping you strong enough to carry on .
You are a strong warrior and champion Mies ! !
Thanks for sharing, hang in there and keep up the good fight.
Prayers and Hugs.
rbowen
Beautiful!!!
miwi
durleybeachbum
Constant pain os so very tiring. My Daughter-in-law is also in pain all the time and there seems to be no solution. But you still produce wonderful art!
rhol_figament
The song of the nymph is as powerful as any siren song...
auntietk
You do such beautiful work. This is lyrical, and in my mind’s eye I see it dancing. Such a joy!
Lessening your mental and emotional pain is a worthy pursuit, and I’m glad your work with Mieke is helping with that. I’m sorry you are in such physical pain, dear one. If I had a magic wand I would surely wave it in your direction! ❤️🧚🏼♂️
RodS
A most beautiful work of art, my friend.
May your pain lessen quickly, and leave you feeling better.
QuietRiot
Stunning image!
prutzworks
mooie dedicatie
ia-du-lin
Fantastic fractal image, great work!
anahata.c
I know that psychotherapy can be liberating...but it doesn't erase disease or emotional pain quickly. You've lived with your physical ailments for a long time, and I'm terribly sorry you have to live with it still, and every day. It must be a lot to "balance"---between the elation and light that you get from your relationship with Mieke, and the continuing pain and exhaustion you have from your PTSD and all its symptoms. I'm sorry you have to go through this every day.
Your image shows struggle but also triumph. The 'head' of the nymph---the top of the green creature at the top of the image---is all light and triumph. In fact it reminds me a little of the rose window of a cathedral, or some of the other symbols of divinity found in old and modern churches. It has a 'halo' of radiating lights around it. But the rest of the image is of many hues, and has many organic forms in it. The piece feels like complex stained glass. But at the same time, it feels like a bas relief. And even a sculpture. It has many textures...everything in it emerges out of the surface. On the bottom you even have skeletal forms...you seem to be unearthing deep primal images of the inner self. The result here is beautiful and deep. Some of the textures are like the skin of powerful animals (like a rhinoceros, or a strong cow). Amazing forms and hues, and the nymph arises out of the piece like a triumphal angel. Beautiful work once more, Jacomina.
jeffy3ds
Great job!!