Over a Year Later... by Desgar
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Picture is from 1993, when I was 20. Lincoln Park lagoon in Chicago, IL. Simpler times, then.
(This is going to be long.)
I'm sorry for being absent from Renderosity for so long. My plan was to comment and fave on art before I tried posting here again. However, sitting here at 3 a.m. is making me think about things. I at least owe an explanation.
For those who haven't already known, my mother passed away on December 9, 2017. In those almost sixteen months since I've been on a mental rollercoaster.
For most of my adult life, I've been content with staying to myself and not be concerned with most regular social matters (thinking the "Universe" will take care of such when the time came). But with Mom no longer here on Earth I really didn't have anyone to connect with except my brothers occasionally.
I was encouraged by my therapist to seek out people. I tried networking events, church, and even had a girlfriend for a while. But church and the girlfriend didn't work out. I stopped trying to network when I got involved with the GF, but will start up again soon because I have to find a better job.
I'm taking time to do 3d art again, but I've been concerned about my five year old laptop being able to keep up. It had a major crash back in December, and thought it died. Luckily a reboot fixed it, but the concern is still there sometimes, especially when thinking about doing complex scenes again.
Life is still touch and go at the moment, but I have to make the best of it. It's not permanent.
If nothing else, I will catch up with all of you again.
Thank you for your support and understanding.
Comments (4)
Radar_rad-dude
A beautiful and tranquil capture! I love it! I hope your computer keeps working for you so we can see more of your creations! I look forward to them! I'm sorry about the loss of your Mother. Mine has been gone since 1995 and my Father in 1999. I still miss them both greatly but I do have my family to keep me grounded. I pray that you continue to navigate these treacherous currents we all are facing and come though the other end most successfully! Take care. I'm sending as many positive vibrations your way as I can!
RodS
So good to hear from you, Wes! I know well the pain of losing those close to you, and sometimes it just takes time to at least partially heal, although the empty place remains. Everyone has their own way of coming to terms with things, and you needed those 16 months. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
I do hope you are able to begin creating art again - it's good for the heart and soul. Art has helped me through some difficult times, as have the friendships I've made here. It continues to be a blessing.
Hopefully that laptop can at least partially keep up. Iray requires a pretty stout system, but hopefully it will be able to still work with 3Dlight. It would be great to see the Divas again.
I'm still using Poser mostly, but have also added DS 4.11 beta to my toolbox as well. Still going strong with T.N.A.
Stay strong, my friend, we're here for you! Great photo, BTW!
thekingtut
I was wondering what you were up to this morning. I'm hoping it'll get better for you once you get back into the swing of things. You do have friends here, never forget that.
Richardphotos
terrific that you have been able to return. when I lost my mother 27 years ago, it did not hit me until later when I almost started to dial her phone. when I was having issues, she would always give me a mental boost