Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
Comments (5)
RodS
This is a gorgeous and heartfelt dedication to one of the brightest lights here at Renderosity! Mark is truly one in a million (at least), and one of the kindest and most supportive souls I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. And a brilliant writer and artist on top of that.
arthez
well done explosion of colors
A_Sunbeam Online Now!
Splendid design and colour!
VDH
Mooie fractal, vooral de intense kleuren zijn aangenaam om te bekijken !!
anahata.c
Hi Jacomina, I saw this Monday morning (in the ebots), but I was in too much of a hurry to comment then. But later, I was in pain, so I couldn't come here until now. (The pain is just muscle pain: It's not serious, just intrusive.) I also saw your comments on the interview page: Thank you so much, Jacomina, I was very moved.
Thank you for your very loving words about my words and my work. You are one of the most dedicated artists I've known, so your words mean the world to me. I'm very glad that what I do here touches you this way. I'm very grateful. And thank you for posting the link for whoever wants to see it. Your love---and your image---makes it even more wonderful.
I love that you call this fractal flower a "party". It seems to have all kind of jewels, and rare metals---like blue gold. And it swirls in a sea of beautiful red buds and living spheres, and larger jewels (like turquoise, sapphires or blue topaz's). It's a big organic sea. And the flower rests on it like an illuminated underwater creature...yet it has a beautiful metallic sheen (w/ touches of gold and reds, etc). It's beautiful, Jacomina, but then all your work is.
Thank you so much for all your love and acceptance. I'm sorry I didn't get here earlier. I know leaving comments isn't easy for you these days, yet you wrote beautifully both here and on the interview. I'm very touched. Take care and I send you lots of love and peace, and healing, Mark