Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
Comments (7)
RodS
AMEN to everything you've said! Mark is one of a kind. This world needs a few billion more like him.
This is a beautiful and so perfect dedication for Mark! Superbly done!
Happy 2024 to you and yours.
dochtersions
Thank you so much, and you're totally right regarding our friend Mark. Wishing you and yours a blessed 2024, Rod.
A_Sunbeam
Lovely colours!
dochtersions
Thank you, Sean.
rayag
Amazing work and words !
dochtersions
Thank you so much, my friend.
g1tip
Excellent work!!!
dochtersions
Thank you so much, my friend.
water
Cool !
dochtersions
Thank you so much, my friend!
APlusDesign
Love all the colours, movement and beautiful poetry!
dochtersions
Thank you so much, my friend Amanda!
anahata.c
Jacomina: Forgive me for commenting on this 6 weeks late. I just couldn't comment before now. I just sent you a note to let you know this comment is 'here'. Also, you've posted several wonderful works since this upload: When I return, I'll comment on them as well. But for now, thank you so much for this beautiful dedication. Your words are very dear and very kind, and they mean a lot to me. Your poem is about a girl who sees beautifiul colors and light all around her...and she seems to wish for those colors, as if she "wished them into existence". (Does that make sense in English? She "dreamt" them into existence. Or prayed them into existence. She "willed" them into existence.) It's beautifully written, and you have several beautiful rhymes in it. (You even create some rhymes in the translation: That's not easy to do! Rhyme doesn't translate well from language to language.) It's beautifully written.
As for the image: It's like a deep spirit, staring at us from the center of the cosmos. It has 2 amazing eyes, like a cosmic owl. And all these sprials swirl from the eyes, into the universe. It may be many other things, these are just the feelings I got from it. You created beautiful deep greens and deep dark aqua hues. And you use red beautifully: Red is a powerful contrast to Green (they're complementary colors---complementaire kleur? I hope that makes sense). And you have many organic forms in too---as if this 2-eyed creature is creating the universe, and lots of primal objects are flying out of its intense gaze. It's like a carnival in the center of the universe---a carnival of the mind or soul. It's another one of your beautiful and highly creative fractals. I love it.
Thank you for all of this, Jacomina. I appreciate this upload very much. Including your beautiful thoughts and your beautiful poem. I will comment on your new work as soon as I return here. As always, you post exquisite work. I wish you much healing a peace (and Karel too). With love and much gratitude, Mark
dochtersions
Thank you, thank you 1000 times, Mark! And, it really make sence what you wrote: "She "dreamt" them into existence. Or prayed them into existence. She "willed" them into existence". I wrote this poem from the perspective of the little girl inside me, as she looked at the world around her unconsciously and innocently at a young age; and indeed, it might have been wishful thinking. Yet I truly felt it, hidden within myself, inwardly turned, where it was safe and full of love, perhaps not wanting to face reality?
I love the way you express yourself so much, I feel so much affection for this writing because that's you, dear friend Mark. Impressive, interwoven words, as if they flow directly from your deep, beautiful inner self. I don't know what it is, how your special gift, developed as a unique talent. I can taste how it absorbs everything, so to speak. Now, if I were to continue in Dutch, I would immediately/automatically start composing poetry about "absorbing words" ;-)
I hope it didn't cost you too much pain to respond, Mark. I realize how difficult it is for you to 'get one physical pain after another'; and I recognize this too, as something that unexpectedly comes around the corner while you are busy looking forward to getting rid of an other burden. And once again, a little poem comes up in Dutch, that tendency to play with words: tricky burden. Dutch: lastige last. I think I do this unconsciously as a way to bring out the 'joker' or the jester in me, as a kind of diversion to camouflage reality. Camouflaging, trivializing, gallows humor, it's a beautiful escape, isn't it Mark?
From the bottom of my heart, I send love, healing, peace and prayers to you, with a big bow for you! Jacomina.