Scars - inspired by TallPockets by cagewench
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It is said that beauty is only skin deep
if you go beneath my skin
and see my visage within
you would be horrified
A burnt, scarred, mutilated child exists there
holding all my hurts
only some of which show on my surface
Would that I could be as sleek as a mirror
as smooth as glass
so that I could reflect beauty
distorted as it may be
I do love myself
but I cannot look too closely
for I am afraid of what else I shall see
in this monster created by victimization and circumstance
in this ravaged child
in me
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TallPockets comment on my poem "Kept" inspired this... *edited to add pic* which is a self-portrait (thanks to the bathroom mirror) showing the scars from the heart surgery I had when I was an infant (and yes, they went through the back since I was only 2 weeks old)
Comments (15)
servo
Since you say many things that have crossed my mind also, for you I say -- "Heaven is not so much where our bodies and our hurts are all fixed; Heaven is more where our eyes and minds are repaired and cleared, so that we see ourselves and our past hurts rightly, in the larger context, where there is beauty and purpose in everything that we were blind to before; Wounds become strengths, flaws become facets of a gemstone, and memories are just insights into how God was shaping us like a loving master craftsman refining silver in a furnace of life." -- Christ's blessings to you, Servo
cagewench
You make many insightful and thoughtful replies. Thank you.
meico
I admire your courage and fortitude immensely ... and you manage to salvage some pleasure [at least for your readers] from the pain in your beautifully-expressed words. V
TallPockets
Hello, young lady. First, I'm honored to have 'inspired' you, somehow. Usually, I've been known to make people 'perspire' (WINK). Second, I ''see'' a lady with a HUGE heart and soul. Third, at my age I have so many wrinkles that when I shower the water runs off like it does in an eaves-trough (WINK #2). Fourth, this is a fabulous piece. Fifth, V o t e. Sixth, SMILE. Seventh, PEACE.
netsia
Cara-Mae, for you to 'bare' your soul this way is difficult yet so freeing. None of us is truly happy with ourselves on some level. I remember in a psychological anthropology class we addressed the issue of 'anticipation/expectation'....interesting area. Must we ALWAYS carry the fn baggage around. v
AusPoet
I suspect that towering over all the torment and pain would be much beauty and strength. What an awesome way to portray "Scars". Hats off to you for your courage.
cagewench
Thank you all for your comments. I must confess that while I was out tonight I started to re-think the self-portrait I put up with this one and was heartened to see so many wonderful responses/comments. I appreciate it.
romanceworks
Life is struggle and we all seem to do it from our first breath to our last. I'd say you carry some deeper scars than many, but you have an amazing outlet through your writing and visuals. Excellent and very heartfelt poem. CC
cagewench
Thanks :) I tend to share these things in the hopes that someone else who may feel the same doesn't feel left out. I do that a lot on my livejournal too, post some posts as public in case they can be of comfort to someone else...
DirtyFairy
i very much relate to this. thats all im going to say ;) fantastic writing.
cagewench
thank you :)
Rooster
I can relate too, brings up so many feelings and emotions that haven't been around for awhile. Very fantastic writing :)
cagewench
Rooster: thank you again :)
ronwindham
I have them too but I got over it and made sure my children were free for this.
cagewench
That is a good thing.