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I have fluctuated between writing things about my state of mind and writing about my life as we know it. Most of the time I'd just delete everything and leave it all blank. I've decided to just ramble on from time to time and let the crap stay. Kind of a log file, just as hard to understand, and just as worthless to most...
May 08 2009: Posted an issue I feel strongly about. Alienate a lot of people. Need to talk to someone. Tried talking to friends but we are all dealing with the same s#it - the loss of a friend. Tried here on Renderosity. Nobody will talk.
May 14 2009: Took some time off to let go of some anger. Hope to post again. I really want to delete everything. Been a member since 2003 so I know how it works. I am just getting so tired of everything.
May 18 2009: It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this. I had hoped there'd be something better for me. I used to think I had something to say. But my private ideologies gave me away. I tried to keep my mouth shut but it's always the same over and over and over again.Today I got it wrong again but it's not surprise. Once more heaven has forgotten me. So everybody clap your hands together and close your eyes, as I watch my world collapse. Don't waste your sympathy on me because I made this mess. My mistakes happen with so much success but I drag you all down into my sorry mess. I said I was sorry but it's always the same over and over and over again. I have been doomed from the first time I tried to find something to say I kept hidden inside. It would be much better if I just smiled and lied. ...
June 5, 2009: Things are not good. I know I should blog. No body reads this. Most web users skim at best. So I am safe in leaving behind scraps of mental illness in my wake. Things are NOT good..
July 10, 2009: It's all turned the s#it - i'ts ALL s#it.
November 25, 2015: I am amazed that I still breath. Whenever I begin to feel as if I have no Hope, I hear a whisper in my ear that reminds me I AM STRONG.
...at least for one more day.
Comments (14)
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Yoshi this is a very nice surprise and a great pleasure indeed to see you back. I see a lot of hope in this image and I hope it stays with you as the new year unfolds. Welcome back :-)
tony_br22
amazing style !
gunsan
Agree with Jim, very welcome back with this hopeful image, I am so glad you can perceive the light that is always there for us,wish you a good new year! Stunning image, love to see your work again!
bevchiron
What a lovely surprise to see something from you again, you've been missed. I love the subtle light & hint of new horizons ahead in your image, they appear distant & perhaps not quite within reach but I hope they are coming your way ; )
adri_n
I like it. It really draws you into the picture. Excellent contrast of darkness wo light. Great job.
cbender
hello yoshi... :) that's really a surprise... i hope you're well and as already mentioned you were missed... and a hopeful picture... you did an amazing job on the highlights here... wow...
SirIglesDremont
What a great work. Traits are well defined and atmosphere is magical. Excellent piece.
saldegal
Wonderful atmosphere and light, fantastic!
Azha
Hey Yosh! Really missed your works, and what a cool new image...I've been absent a bit myself lately. I love the grainy texture and grey scale is always a favorite of mine. Bravo!
Sapphyre_net
Very nicely done! excellent! :)
Digimon
Interesting, this ones posted on my birthday! Great drawing! And the most positive image I've seen so far! Excellent lighting!
A_
that's beautiful! wonderful light. it has that feeling of hope.. like the fresh feeling you get when the sun comes out after it rained, and the air is clear. thank you for sharing your images, and i'm sorry if some of my comments were (and will be) strange.. sometimes i can't express myself in words. and even if i didn't comment - i watched all of your images and felt each an every one of them.. i just coudn't find the right words to express myself.
SSoffia
TE CONOSCO !!!!!!!!
icerian
Excellent! 5+