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I have fluctuated between writing things about my state of mind and writing about my life as we know it. Most of the time I'd just delete everything and leave it all blank. I've decided to just ramble on from time to time and let the crap stay. Kind of a log file, just as hard to understand, and just as worthless to most...
May 08 2009: Posted an issue I feel strongly about. Alienate a lot of people. Need to talk to someone. Tried talking to friends but we are all dealing with the same s#it - the loss of a friend. Tried here on Renderosity. Nobody will talk.
May 14 2009: Took some time off to let go of some anger. Hope to post again. I really want to delete everything. Been a member since 2003 so I know how it works. I am just getting so tired of everything.
May 18 2009: It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this. I had hoped there'd be something better for me. I used to think I had something to say. But my private ideologies gave me away. I tried to keep my mouth shut but it's always the same over and over and over again.Today I got it wrong again but it's not surprise. Once more heaven has forgotten me. So everybody clap your hands together and close your eyes, as I watch my world collapse. Don't waste your sympathy on me because I made this mess. My mistakes happen with so much success but I drag you all down into my sorry mess. I said I was sorry but it's always the same over and over and over again. I have been doomed from the first time I tried to find something to say I kept hidden inside. It would be much better if I just smiled and lied. ...
June 5, 2009: Things are not good. I know I should blog. No body reads this. Most web users skim at best. So I am safe in leaving behind scraps of mental illness in my wake. Things are NOT good..
July 10, 2009: It's all turned the s#it - i'ts ALL s#it.
November 25, 2015: I am amazed that I still breath. Whenever I begin to feel as if I have no Hope, I hear a whisper in my ear that reminds me I AM STRONG.
...at least for one more day.
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Comments (10)
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Way to go Yo! A beautiful mysterious, somewhat elusive image and the quality of the shot ain't that crappy at all. Hope the next year surpasses this one for you as life weaves its way ahead. All the best :-)
titta
Hi Yo! Wonderful to see you and your works again! There's feeling of waiting; deciding wether to climb up or not... The colors are so pleasing, with their great tonal range. - Congrats for the show - that gallerist must be quite wise. :-)
ascrazy
wow, absolutely wonderful mistical light and mood, atmosphere like from story Franz Kafka's, fantastic colouring:-) v
unstrung65
....love the textures and feeling in this piece.....a little Edward Hopperish in subject matter.
bevchiron
Congrats Yo! Great to hear your work is getting the recognition it deserves ; ) Beautiful colours & tones in this deeply evocative composition, excellent work!
cbender
great yo...! i guess there's not much too add... this is awesome...! too much words to describe what happens in my head... :) thanks for sharing...! and all the best for 2005
Sapphyre_net
Love the somber feeling or mood. Most excellent! Congratulations on the art show! :)
Turin_Returns
Gorgeous colours. I have always loved the gold/purple contrast - and frequently use it in my own paintings. The peeling paint on the wall almost looks like a wailing mouth.
ACS-001
Just perfect!
drag
it's funny it's taking me along time to find this. I'm going to add it to my favorites. I love the light and the shadow. The over all feel.