World War II ....or what it has done for me by jaggos
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Dear Viewers.
The next words don't mean that I think I'm special or different in any way.
It's also not meant to make anybody feel bad about whatever his or her country
did in the past. It's just (in a view words) my everyday struggle in this life.
Yes, and therefor also with my photography and posting here on Renderosity.
My dad comes from Poland (1927) and he is one of the not so many survivers of a
concentration camp. Although he denies it, his past is and has been a great
influence on my familylive and therefor on the person I am today. It's not that I
blame him or anybody else. Fact remains that my youth has been filled with a lot
of negativity. Also when good things could have been said there were always negativ
comments.
Over the years I've come to hear so often that everything I did was wrong
or at least could have been better, that it finaly came the way I perseived(?) myself.
After more then ten years of therapy It's still difficult to say that there are
things I can do and can do right. Posting here on Renderosity is also difficult.
Instead of being proud of my own pictures I seek asurence in your comments.
Reading them, spelling them letter for letter just to make me feel better. On the
other hand knowing that they are nothing more or less then a few comments of some
people I don't know. PLease don't get me wrong. I respect your comments, votes and
most of all your talents in photography or other arts. But although I spell your
comments letter for letter: at the end they don't make me feel better. Cause what
are my pictures compared to the many beautyful pictures produced in this world by
somemany more talented people.
I know it's the wrong way of thinking. Since at the end your comments aren't goin
to change my life. I'm the one who has to come to peace with himself. With every
picture posted I hope to get there little by little. But I know I still have a
long way to go. Although I might and have denied it: It's still never enough.
Not the amount of views, comments or ratings. And it never will be until I find
peace in my head with who I am and the things I can instead of the things I can't
do right.
I hope to be here for a long long time. Please keep the comments coming cause one
day I will hopefully fully understand what they mean.
Thanks for your time.
Eddy.
Comments (14)
weesel
"Cause what are my pictures compared to the many beautyful pictures produced in this world by somemany more talented people." So you say. However, do you realize there is probably someone else looking at your work and saying the same thing! So? Be proud of your work if it is honest. Your contributions are important to the community.
BigDen
Sounds like your father's awful experience in the camps scarred him and the rest of your family. As a son of one who liberated at least one of those camps, I believe it was not so much the war as one of the reasons for the war that has affected your life. It took my Dad years to be able to talk about what he saw and even then he didn't say anything until some idiot claimed it never happened. My dad's scars affected the way I look at life too. Fortunately for me, in the other direction. PEACE and goodness in the future.....by the way...FINE photo
mireille
Hi Eddy! As I saw your thumbnail I knew that there would be something here...'cause war is causing sufferings that make suffer people that make suffers other people as they are not healed..and so on...An artist communicate...and you did it as this photo and your comment is touching right to the heart...Best thaughts for healing both your hearts man...This shot is just perfect...Wish you to enjoy creating, and what you are creating !
Qualien
Nice of you to share and be open about your thoughts and feelings, that takes a lot of strength in itself. If I could find anything to criticize in the image, I would. But I agree with mirelle, it's perfect.
b2amphot
I seriously doubt most who post here feel their pics are worthy, but all try their best and that's what counts most. My father served as a Marine in wwII, saw much action, never spoke of it, I learned of it from others that served with him. Many have scars... life gives scars, we can only deal with them the best we can... we are only human. This pic is a marvelous effort and I take it as a noble tribute to those who fought that terrible war that made so many free today.
captor213
"He who learns must suffer. In our dreams, pain that cannot forget falls drop by drop upon the heart, and in our despair, against our will, comes wisdom...through the awful grace of God."--An Excellent photo, I love it.
cynlee
art in many ways is a release of turmoil within ourselves, posting here we may find a small common thread... the post is short & bittersweet for something we might wring our hands over & the challenge begins again in coming up with something just as fine as the last... your thoughts are not so alone... but believe me, your vision is brilliant!! :]
Akinom
I think most of us... including me... feel the same way about their work. Anyway we try to improve and we grow with every work! And for me it's most important to do my work with all my heart... that is my way to find my inner peace. Your vsion is brilliant... Cyn said it already! You're a gift to the gallery, a great inspiration! Thanks!
Michelle A.
The image is beautiful..... and the words from the heart. I like that. And I do believe that many can relate.....
Chaos911
wow, fantastic
Enmos
Stunning capture here, really professional work !!! :o)
nicokorn
There will always be people in our lives who did it better than we did. And regarding your photos, you did, and still do, very well! Try to look forward to the future.
PreyingJaws
striking capture with your history lesson. thankyou for your POV
fluffgirl
Dear jaggos. I have read your story very carefully. Me too I was bought up with a lot of negativity.. But at the age of 63...I can tell you this.. No matter how good you are at something. Be it writing painting taking photos .climbing mount Everest.. There will always be someone somewhere that will be better Than you is that reason enough to stop doing what you most love doing in life! when I read crime and punishment written by Dostoevsky.. When I was younger..I thought ,,, well. what is the point of me writing anything at all after something like this but now I think.. I would never have wrote anything like crime and punishment but I would have wrote something as Me I wanted to paint ,, and do so many things instead I let fear paralyze me to the point of doing very little.. go and take beautiful photograph.. And do It for yourselfand if by any chance anyone else love them as well it will be a bonus.. But first of all my dear friend ..Be happylife is very short...ps... I love the photo. ..