BIO
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I have fluctuated between writing things about my state of mind and writing about my life as we know it. Most of the time I'd just delete everything and leave it all blank. I've decided to just ramble on from time to time and let the crap stay. Kind of a log file, just as hard to understand, and just as worthless to most...
May 08 2009: Posted an issue I feel strongly about. Alienate a lot of people. Need to talk to someone. Tried talking to friends but we are all dealing with the same s#it - the loss of a friend. Tried here on Renderosity. Nobody will talk.
May 14 2009: Took some time off to let go of some anger. Hope to post again. I really want to delete everything. Been a member since 2003 so I know how it works. I am just getting so tired of everything.
May 18 2009: It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this. I had hoped there'd be something better for me. I used to think I had something to say. But my private ideologies gave me away. I tried to keep my mouth shut but it's always the same over and over and over again.Today I got it wrong again but it's not surprise. Once more heaven has forgotten me. So everybody clap your hands together and close your eyes, as I watch my world collapse. Don't waste your sympathy on me because I made this mess. My mistakes happen with so much success but I drag you all down into my sorry mess. I said I was sorry but it's always the same over and over and over again. I have been doomed from the first time I tried to find something to say I kept hidden inside. It would be much better if I just smiled and lied. ...
June 5, 2009: Things are not good. I know I should blog. No body reads this. Most web users skim at best. So I am safe in leaving behind scraps of mental illness in my wake. Things are NOT good..
July 10, 2009: It's all turned the s#it - i'ts ALL s#it.
November 25, 2015: I am amazed that I still breath. Whenever I begin to feel as if I have no Hope, I hear a whisper in my ear that reminds me I AM STRONG.
...at least for one more day.
Comments (13)
gunsan
Been there many times, agree!
ppetersen
Says it all. Excellent and very deep thoughts this provokes.
FearaJinx
Yes that says it all. Excellent work! I love the photo!
Odrah
quite impressive and meaningful artwork!
Synapse
There's something called empathy which is sadly missing from a lot of so-called therapists. One understands that they can't become too emotionally involved with their clients' problems, but far too many just go the other way and approach the situation with a detached coldness, all text-book "know how" as you say. To have such a part of your life governed by these people is just wrong.
Richardphotos
excellent writing and the foto relates your story so well
cbender
choose another one... you have my empathy... the picture is great! i like it a lot... i like the roleplay you showed perfectly here and also the distance between both... (shouldn't there be a "connection"...?!?) great!
titta
Incredibly expressive picture, with as impressive and true words.
PIXELPUNK10010
Awesome statement. It sad that people think because they went through school that their text book can somehow explain your every thought and intention. Then they become selfrighteous about it and act as if they are superior to everyone else. I think that the people behind the desk use their doctorate to hide behind. They cover up their own problems by 'helping' others and looking like they know it all.
Digimon
Nothing more to say. Though everyones experience is different. I have had couseling like that, and I rebelled. But I've also had counseling that helped. Powerful words & image.
Caithream
We are empty and angry when we are led to give our power over.Take it back before you have little left.If one becomes defined by another in authority,then you remain undefined.Define yourself.
A_
this is so moving. the image-- the composition and light-- the pose of utter despair-- i'm lost for words, once again. i'm so sorry i can't think of a way to phrase myself. but your artwork really have that visceral impact on me, and it cannot be translated into words.
SSoffia
YES ERIK ............