In April, I made a post about what things should be like at Renderosity but were no more in my eyes. I basically said goodbye in end up, the thread was hijacked for every piece of crud except what Renderosity had lost. The ability to care.

Three months later I come back and see minor changes starting to happen, maybe not with the site but with cleaning things up a bit.

In these 3 months I've been busy scheming, turning the negativity I found here into a positive outlet. I had to turn me around and detox, think i may even have snapped at Kristi when she checked to see I was ok, that's how badly the atmosphere was affecting me.

During these 3 months, I've turned all the negativity I felt to positive:

1. I've created a business plan and am almost at stage of getting ready to open a business
2. i'm in midst of having a website built for something else

This is just 2 of what I've been up to, life changing decisions to find a way for me to channel negativity.

The third and final has been on top of the other 2 and has been planning Khai-J-Bach and I's wedding in October.

For all Renderosity has been toxic, I found the most amazing gift here, the gift of true love.

Here, I've gave up being a vendor, I gave up everything because I believed Renderosity had gave up on us. The truth is we gave up on each other and only we as a team can rebuild. The site may be crap to use, there may be trolls, but we all found friendship here, caring here and in many cases like myself, love.

A year ago Khai and I announced our engagement at Renderosity. Today, although the chatters knew, I am now making our wedding official on October 29th 2016.

Love

Piper

Congrats sweetie!

Congrats!

This is great to hear. Congratulations and good luck with your ventures.

Amethyst_Heart - I know some of the challenges you face and I still love you!

I am trying my best and little by little, things are improving. It didn't go downhill overnight so it will take more than overnight to get back up the hill.

I cannot do it alone though as you are right, it takes all to turn it back around.

Thank you for posting and you know I will always be here for you and others as I am all ears. We may not always agree however I am always listening and will do whatever I can to think of a good middle ground.

Love,

Kristi

I was never angry at you, my anger was at what we'd all become and where the site had gone. The changes will be small here but each step forward is a step in the right direction, backwards will happen, i'm sorry to say, but battle hard and this site can be turned round. I told hope the same on this matter.

Nobody in life fully agrees, I'm blunt, to the point and can sound mean when i'm in blunt mode, life would be boring if we all agreed all the time.

I decided to take back my life before it destroyed my creativity and at the time you checked on me I'd hit rock bottom with all the toxic. For me, I had 2 choices, walk away and rebuild my life or snap and be brutally honest, making myself ignorant isn't my nature 99% of time though on some things I will fight for truth. What I did know was I lost my creativity, my ability to love what i was doing. Without loving or caring about what you do, you no longer care what it looks like, you give up.

I am the Amethyst_Heart, I come across as a heart of stone a lot of the time, problem is i'm soft like a marshmallow below it, i'm easily hurt. Reflection though makes me see that I was a part of my own hurt. I've changed that and hopefully soon I'll be able to show you what I'm up to but as linking isn't allowed and I have a 2nd place to create as yet, but that will take time.

Keep fighting sweetcheeks if anyone can do this, you can!!!

Hugs N Love

Piper

I know you weren't and I did not take it personal. I am a fighter and I will not give up on Renderosity as my love for it, members, and vendors runs deep.

Life would be very boring as I say that all the time...lol There is a difference between being rude, and being honest. I know I will always get the truth and I appreciate that.

I am glad you have a plan and if you need anything, you know I am here

I find it is usually those that seem to have the hardest exterior are usually the ones who are marshmallows internally.

Thank you for the kind words and the faith as it means a lot to me.

I will give it my all...you can bet on that

Love and Hugs,

Congratulations !!

Thanks for the positive words, @Amethyst_Heart! I am VERY happy that you & Khai found each other. Always remember to never give up on anything, whether it be true love or fixing things.

Congratulations Piper. I know it's been hard when the place you love is undergoing so many changes. Hope came in when many people were angry, and I'm happy for you hope, the magazine is probably a good fit. Kristi, I wish you well, you have a good heart.