BIO
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I have fluctuated between writing things about my state of mind and writing about my life as we know it. Most of the time I'd just delete everything and leave it all blank. I've decided to just ramble on from time to time and let the crap stay. Kind of a log file, just as hard to understand, and just as worthless to most...
May 08 2009: Posted an issue I feel strongly about. Alienate a lot of people. Need to talk to someone. Tried talking to friends but we are all dealing with the same s#it - the loss of a friend. Tried here on Renderosity. Nobody will talk.
May 14 2009: Took some time off to let go of some anger. Hope to post again. I really want to delete everything. Been a member since 2003 so I know how it works. I am just getting so tired of everything.
May 18 2009: It's so desperately sad that my life has come to this. I had hoped there'd be something better for me. I used to think I had something to say. But my private ideologies gave me away. I tried to keep my mouth shut but it's always the same over and over and over again.Today I got it wrong again but it's not surprise. Once more heaven has forgotten me. So everybody clap your hands together and close your eyes, as I watch my world collapse. Don't waste your sympathy on me because I made this mess. My mistakes happen with so much success but I drag you all down into my sorry mess. I said I was sorry but it's always the same over and over and over again. I have been doomed from the first time I tried to find something to say I kept hidden inside. It would be much better if I just smiled and lied. ...
June 5, 2009: Things are not good. I know I should blog. No body reads this. Most web users skim at best. So I am safe in leaving behind scraps of mental illness in my wake. Things are NOT good..
July 10, 2009: It's all turned the s#it - i'ts ALL s#it.
November 25, 2015: I am amazed that I still breath. Whenever I begin to feel as if I have no Hope, I hear a whisper in my ear that reminds me I AM STRONG.
...at least for one more day.
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Comments (8)
Jay7347
NIce illustration yo! -jay vote
titta
This pictue breaks through anything! incredible colours; from nature and yet coming so far from their source. And the figure strikes with all its power straight to the consciousness. Sartre (among some others) said that consciousness is always free, it's basically free - and this picture brings that basic freedom before us. We can turn our heads away but it doesn't change it at all. Freedom is our treasure, and our curse. We strive for it, and we know that it's already there. There is no freedom outside us... Look now, Yo, what your picture made me write! :-) But I don't delete it. Let it be that way - some late night rambling. You can see how impressed I am about this picture of yours. Take care. and grasp the wild freedom - it might not make you all happy, but the pearls of it can be seen in your art.
A_
very well done. man, this is so intense.
shutterb
Great dramatic image. Terrific. Can't wait to see the final...
kenwas
Excellent work! V!
cbender
live your life... the fear tries to hinder you... just live it... hugs
cbender
live your life... the fear tries to hinder you... just live it... hugs like the way you just do your art... :)
bevchiron
Incredible use of scale in this image Yo, it conveys a formidiable impression of both power & fear capturing your feelings in a way that really takes my breath away. I'm sure you will do those things, find a way to live, breathe & be free, I see it in your art & hope in my heart you will find a way to find freedom in your life too.