~~Curious Crocus~~ by Blush
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I did manange to get a picture of these crocus and two others on a good day I had.
Have not felt like posting, just been hurting too much.
On a recent ER visit a few weeks ago, a Doctor told my friend that I only had 3-4 months to live.
I would love to know how he knew and he did not know me from Adam, but I know he did call my Oncologist to see if he could prescribe Morphine for my pain.
I need to find out if they did indeed talk about this.
I was and still have been in somewhat of a surreal state on this matter.
It does seem that the Morphine is helping me at times but....
They may have to increase the dosage.
This is the worst pain I think I have ever encountered.
Some days I can't even get out of bed.
Even my fingers hurt, but I am definitely not giving up the fight.
I have made up my mind I am going to overcome this as I have in the past.
It just may take some time and correcting the dosage of my pain meds.
It looks like 2 Morphine tabs every 2 to 4hrs would do the trick but it doesn't phase it sometimes.
If that would ease, then I would feel 100% better.
I am just glad to wake up every day, see my family, my dog and come on line when I am able and still view all of your beautiful images.
I got Poser 5 and the book. I have to download a zip utitlity. Any suggestions?
My mouth is watering to get this done but will have to read and concentrate and will have to be having a good day to do this.
I am like how do you find images LOL?
So overwhelming, but yet so beautiful.
A few good days to learn how to do this is all I need but those are few and far between.
Dawn it was so nice to talk to you the other day and to Shahlaa as well two very, very nice people and also was nice to talk to DavidOBlad as well as the people in Poser Forum for their help.
These lil crocus are the first to appear in the winter and I know spring is around the corner.
I did get 2 more pics but going to save them for later.
Many thanks once again for all your love, kindness, support and concern and in particular, the images you are dedicating to me.
Please forgive me if I don't comment some days on your images.
It is all I can do just to sit some days to just delete my e-mail...I want to do so much more but just can't...
This is the longest I have been without posting a picture.
Hope you all enjoy it.
All comments are most welcome and appreciated and once again thank you for your love and support and being my Online Family.
Love n hugs
Susan~
Comments (54)
BarbieDahl
Very beautiful image. I'm so very sorry to hear about what you have to go through. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
sLexie
I`m so sorry to hear about what you have to go trough. You are in my toughts and prayers. Your image of those crocuses are very beautiful,thank you so much for shearing it whit us.... Hugs Lisa
Max_the_Dog
Gorgeous,just gorgeous.Sorry to read about your health.Wish you all the best.Your doctor was out of order.
tom4texas
Susan I am so sorry to hear of the pain and suffering you are experiencing. As many of the others have said do not feel as if you have to comment. It is more important that you take care of yourself. I am new to the galleries and I have viewed yours. You are an amazing artist. This current picture is just one of the many which are simply beautiful. Thank you for taking the time to share.
Shakti27
The beauty that you share with us is only surpassed by the beauty of your heart hun and that is always shining no matter what happens - dont worry yourself over things and just enjoy each day to the fullest - its hard to do with so much pain but we are all here for you and share in that as best we can - we all love you hun and hope for the best for you HUGEST OF HUGS
Onikuh
Hang in there Susan..& remember you are/have been here for a purpose. You've become all of our friends, right? ;) You are such a sweet person and it shows throughout your art. ~HUGS~
Surama
What a fantastic shot Susan......you are in my prayers.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dusty357
i love your flowers ,you make me want to go shooting,, you keep strong and dont ever believe what they tell ya, God likes to make dr's look bad,,he's done it time and time again,,, your big bro in Tn ,,,,,
GVDV
Dear Susan, You never have heard of me and i am sorry that i never have reached your gallery...untill now that is...i have taken a quick look and was truly in awe for all that beauty it contains...I can't find the right words to make you feel better and words wouldn't help easing the pain anyway...so try to take as many medicines as possible to maintain an acceptable level of social life...as long as you can find pleasure in your everyday doings your health will absorp the benifits from it...I know it's easy for us to write words when you will have to do all the hard work and the fighting...but i will light a candle for you first thing in the morning...One never knows if his or her prayers will be taken into account and often they don't...But you have to keep your faith...in yourself, in your doctors, in your family and in your friends...As long as you have a goal in life it will make you only stronger and harder to be beaten... I recently have written in here that we, Gods children , don't make up the policy what must happen and what not, and often we fail to see the reason why things happen...but if you believe that there's always something good coming out of something bad you're already half way there...I am gonna walk back into your gallery tomorrow and enjoy the beauty in there...and i won't forget that candle...Think positive, try to make the most out of every day, CARPE DIEM, seize the day, may God bless you and comfort you and spare you from too much suffering...From now on you will stay in my mind and heart... Gerald (AKA : GVDV)
Virtual_World
The only medicine I can give you is LOVE, please take it as much as you need it. There are a lot of people that loves you here and are praying for you!
4udreamcatcher
Dear Susan, please know I think of you often, you are in my prayers and I can only iamgine thje terrible time you face at the moment ......... this is a beautiful image, a testament to the Spring when everything is supposed to bring clarity of thought ..... Life does not make a whole lot of sense sometimes, but know that whatever role you have played and continue to play means a whole lot to many - me included. I am honored to have met you ........ keep the chin up! Beautiful capture and treatment!
three_grrr
Your strength and grace in all this pain in the midst of this awful disease is incredible. You are in my prayers, I think of you often. Your post of crocuses is a sign of good things, "Spring is just around the corner", they shout, and good things come with spring.
evielouise
STEVIEUKWONDER --commented and I agree please listen to your doctor only : and susan when it comes to when were going we have no say in the matter its not in our hands for most or all of us: you will be uploading pictures for a long time dear: stay tough don't give in: love and hugs evei))
DIANE603
Susan I think of you everyday and you are on my prayer list. I will send you an e-mail re the pain med I have used for my cancer treatments. I just started posting again. I also have some serious medical problems that I am dealing with. Love ya Diane
kodewarrior1
It's a so beautiful pic, Susan. I'm so sorry for the pain u have, and i really hope u will feel better. We're all near to u, hoping our love will give u some relief from that pain.
vulcanccit
my thoughts are with you, which may not be much, but I hope your photography calms your pain. huge hugs
sixstring
Susan, you mustn't feel bad about not being around to comment. Just do what you have to to feel better, physically and otherwise. I have a personal beef with Cancer. It took both my grandparents from me, and I miss them both dearly. Live your life to the fullest, Susan, and keep fighting!!!! Big hugs! - Matt
Ionel
Hi Susan, you have a wonderful gallery here! Superb works! :) I am really sorry to hear about what has happened to you, specially because my mother had the same problem and I know how painful it is! Don't ever lose your faith in our Lord!
brubright
Finally I got through it, and was able to finish reading what you wrote. My heart would hurt so much each time I tried. I just want to reach out and hold you in my arms and say prayer together and believe for a brighter day each day. Your positive attitude inspires me though. I have been struggling with my own pain and your words are encouraging to continue to fight and not give up no matter what. May God Bless you and keep you my friend and brighten your every day, and each day show you the light of His presense in your life. My prayers are with you. Beautiful capture. Wonderful Job!
efron_241
Dah... this is sad sad news.. Found you because Belgium GVDV made an image for you... that was already impressive.. but this text is too May your days be good and the memories you have been able to collect through the years be only good ones !! We think of you
avalonfaayre
Your crocus are beautiful, sweetie. Remember that no matter what the doctor says, God has the last word on everything. I just hate that you have to hurt. I am continually praying for you, and I know that God answers prayer. I admire your tenacity. Big hugs and lots of love your way.
Skydancer917
Hello Susan, these flowers are just beautiful and a wonderful sign of spring. As others have said, there's no need to comment on our images and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. My heart goes out to you for what you are going through and I hope this pain can be better managed for you so that you may continue to do the things you love. Keep up the fight, my dear. You know all of us here are praying for you. Hugs, Diana
colynn
Beautiful image!! Hope to hear you are getting rest and feeling better! ^^
OldHippieKeyboard
Beautiful blues in this, Susan. Another wonderful posting. Keep fighting, girl. The combined vibes of all of us pulling for you will aid in your recovery.