Grief by Conniekat8
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I'm losing Tiggers, my love pride and joy to a nasty inoperable liver tumor. Poor thing is on her last few days, and I feel like I want to die with her. (No don't worry, I won't, I have RL family support here), it's just that the feelings of grief and sadness are so intense.
Tiggers has been with me for 12 years, since she was a litle baby kitten. Extraordinary little kitty, and also, beed a big part of my emotional support in last 12 years, which had some turbulent periods.
IÂ always hoped she would be one of tose kitties living to be 18 or 20 years or so... but no such luck.
Here's a link to an earlier gallery posting, with her picture.
Comments (36)
DarkStormCrow
Excellent image, I feel for you on the loss, a few years back we lost a cat we had for 18 years, the dog is ten years plus now gonna rip me apart when she goes. Be Well Be Safe Blessings to you
Darkwish
I so sorry about it! It is always very hard. ((((((
Spacer_01
My sincerest heartfelt sympathies and to you, Tiggers and family. I'm a pet owner too, and over the years its never easy, nor ever gets any easier. Our cats (and pets), they're family to us, like our own children, if not surrogate children that adopt us as much as we adopt them. They're each unique individuals in their own personality, behaviour, preferences, and temperment. No two ever alike. They may not be able to talk our spoken language, but yet they're so human in their qualities and in their own way they make an impression on us with their own body language. They're always there for you with unconditional love, always seem to know when your down or ill, and seem to know when to spend time with you, to offer some comfort and affection. And sometimes cheer you up. Its always the little things like that we often take for granted but will come to realize we miss the most once after they're gone. Such as the way they brush up against your leg, or stand up on their hind legs reaching up to your lap, or simply claim your lap, or the chair your sitting in, tuck you in at night as they settle in they're part of the bed or wake you up in the morning or know when your stepping out, or waiting for you in the window when you return. They each have their own special verbal response for every occasion, that becomes its own unique language that we learn to understand. Even just typing this, reminds me of my own dearly departed Spotty, of 14 years, who was lost to cancer as well; now 9 years ago. Even now, i'm unable to keep a few tears from welling up and letting loose. Its truly because of the special individual bonds we each develop and share with our pets- our loved ones, the impressions they impart on us that never really leave us because we dearly love them so. And knowingly, we'll truly miss them so.
magnus073
Connie I am so sorry this is happening to your little Kitty. I can relate as I lost a puppy to cancer a few years back and felt just like you do now.
Cimaira
My heart goes out to you. I dread the day I face lossing my favorite old man, he's 13 now. I'll be think of you and your beloved friend. Beautiful and moving image. The body posture says it all. Wonderful lighting.
originalkitten
Oh sweetie I am so so so sorry to hear this. I have lost a furbabie before and it rips you apart. You are in my prayers and thoughts hun. Big kitty hugs x
jefsview
I know your pain, Connie. Tigger is a cutey. Your image captures that pain quite well. Hang in there.
Faemike55
Connie, I's so sorry to hear this news! My thoughts and prayers are with you
MirageBay
Connie, my heart goes out to you. After last Monday's loss, there are no words to describe the agony, yet it seems most of us have shared it at one time or another. Your cat and render are very beautiful.
RAMWorks
What a gorgeous, heartfelt image you have created my dear Connie. I welled up when I saw it because I know what you are going through. It's so hard to loose a being that we have such a strong connection to and I know you will be heartbroken when it happens for a while. Take your time and take good care of yourself and do things that bring you joy. I hope the Goddess takes Tiggers into her care and keeps her safe and greets you on the other side when it's your time.... HUGS and Kisses to you both....
Fisty
My mom said to me a couple weeks ago when we went in to the vet to say goodnight to her Gracy kitty.. "they say all your pets wait for you in heaven and come running to greet you when get there, I'm going to have a field full knocking me over" It's at least a somewhat comforting thought. My big black furbaby is sitting in front of my keyboard right now making it very hard to type and trying to stick her forhead through my shoulder... it drives me crazy sometimes but it's her way of being affectionate and I'll miss it when she leaves us.. hopefully it'll be quite a few years, she's only 3.
dbrv6
It is always very hard, there is no avoiding that. Wonderful and touching render you have done here.
shadownet
This is a gorgeous scene full of tenderness and emotion, truly crafted with all the grief and love and sorrow and passion you are feeling. I am certain in the days to come, Tigger will be missed but her spirit and memory will be ever present and with you. You will smile and your heart will heal, and with fondness you will recall the time you had together. BIG HUG
lyron
Sorry to hear that. Great pic!!!
guitar-slinger Online Now!
I feel bad for you Connie....... That same medical situation happened to our kitty Cassandra, She lived to be 17, It was a sad day for our family. hang in there. hugsss.. Roger
adrie
Sorry to hear it about your pet, but your beautiful image is a wonderful dedi for her.....excellent work my friend.
LBAMagic
Beautiful emotive image. Sorry for your loss.
densa
so sorry to hear about your dear friend beautiful way to express your feelings
Lillaanya
hugs
witchdidi
Saying sorry seems like it's not enough but I'm really sorry that this is happening to you... Lovely render...really sad but lovely.
TieDyeQueen
my goodness that is lovely! So sorry you had to feel what you did, though. You convey it mightily here. Thank you for sharing.
jamminwolf
Finally went back to your thread at Daz3D, then saw your "final post" link and came here, to realize why you were making this render (besides just making renders). I didn't catch on 'cause I didn't read much except the light techniques. I'm really sorry for your loss, I've been there. The one that really hurt our family the most was the loss of a little (runt of the litter) black half terrier/(and something else) that made him look like a mop rag, named "Rags" lol.. we had him since my little brother was born up till he was 8 years old. When we lost him to a car hitting him, it hit our family really hard, we grew up with that dog and have always loved him! So hang in there, Connie, and be prepared. Life is unfair most of the time and sometimes there's simply nothing we can do to change the situation, but with strength, family, and friends supporting, we can deal with it better :) This is a remarkable render, very nicely done, and yes, the lights are just beautiful!! 5+....... ++++++ lol :) ...wolfie
MrZiegler
Very cool Connie!
HellKitten
Beautiful work, I can feel your sadness in this image. I am so sorry about Tiggers, she is beautiful. My thoughts are with you. hug
sema_fox
Wonderfully!
M2A
I feel your sadness through your image. Your cat will stay as a candle in the night.
Lunastar
Oh Connie I am so very sorry.
svendsen
Beautiful scene and lovely lighting... :o) Sad about Tiggers...
bakapo
oh, I'm so sorry. hugs the emotion in this is well done.
redheadgrrl
Losing a pet is terrible. Sad. Inevitable. I really feel for you, I have two beloved dogs of my own, and fondly remember the two cats we once owned - even our daughter's rabbit. Gentle loving creatures that bless us with their undying love and presence. Isn't it amazing how they need us, turn to us - even self-sufficient cats? Anyway - the picture is lovely. You've captured her sorrowfulness and rendered it well. I like it a lot. Gun aka redheadgrrl