Tears in Heaven/repost(for my dear friend Susan) by eekdog
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i do not know where to start, i'm so lost for words and so very hurting right now. my/our dear friend Blush/Susan has lost her very, very long and painful battle with cancer, not sure if it was friday or Saturday yet, i will be calling her son in Kentucy to express my sadness, and i have only reposted images maybe twice since being here, not much into that. but i'm so mentally drained at this moment and have lack of any idea what to create so i searched my gallery for something that fits my feelings for my dear friend. i cannot explain how sad i feel. she has had several bouts with this killer disease and did loose the battle with it. forgive for any mistypes or spellings, very hard to write with tears in the eyes, and this small azz comment box sure does not help. some of you know her by her extreame kindness and her top notch photography, in my honest view she was one of the finest photographers ever. i so much respected her work and kind heart. when she lost her husband Danny last year on June 15th i think she really had alot to deal with. but she is a angel in heaven now and i guess best of all if those words are right, she no longer ever has to suffer anymore. i ask god to take me instead of so many wondeful people on this earth from cancer. cause i feel i'm not really a good person. can't elaborate on that. my heart is broken and i feel Susan was my real lil' sister to me and i have lost a very dear family member, i cry, i cry, i cry. i know at times she mentions her condition to me and in comments on other fine works and on her posts when she did them. i recall a few years back some artist gave her crap about posting her condition and that so pissed me off. i honesty have prayed every day for her for several years now and still will.
i'm not going to link a post from my last image here, but will link my dear little sis's gallery link below, please, please visit and say a prayer for the Vessels Family, her son has lost both his parents in a short time and i do not know him, but i'm sure that pain is unbearable. i have never ever met her but like i mentioned she was a family memeber to me and i grief alot, back in 1999 i lost the dearest friend KIm and sweetheart and the love of my life, but never was a girlfriend. she was killed by a car in the street. and i feel equal pain and grief. and i'm not sure if i can create another beautiful image for Susan at this time, so i elected on this repost. forgive me. i completed a great image last night, but it does not convey the sadness for this moment, but i know dear Susan would still have loved it for this moment. i thank you all for reading this if you did and hope you can share a thought and a prayer for one of rendos best people ever. i will be sending a card to her son, and if anyone of you would like to do the same plz site mail me and i will share her kentucy address. just wish i had the cash to send flowers, unemployment sucks and still have not recieved a thing. i will post the image i made on Monday. then try and come up with another for my friend. her gallery link below. many thanks for the visit and thoughts.
http://www.renderosity.com/mod/gallery/browse.php?username=Blush
i might catch some flack about posting the song by Eric Clapton below but right now. i feel so much grief and this song is so beautiful.
Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong
And carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way
Through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven
Comments (95)
tetrasnake
My prayers go out to you, Steve. This is a wonderful and touching dedi. Once again, my condolences.
legolie
Your words are very touching Steve, I can feel you dIstress and I am sorry for Susan's family and friends ... I did not know her but I have seen so many dedications to her in the gallery that I knew she was ill and she fighted again cancer ... My sincere condolences for all those you knew her ....
artofsouls
I am so sad at your loss. the poem says it all
Shaylea
awww...I feel your pain & loss dear. I wished I could ease your pain & sorrow. A beautiful dedication and I know she would love the words you have expressed. Prayers & thoughts go to her son.
TeamSchmidt
So very sad, she was so talented and so very sweet!!! My only hope is that the Lord has taken all her pain away and she is happy and at peace in heaven smiling down upon us! She will be greatly missed! A wonderful dedi to an amazing person! R.I.P. Susan, we all love you!
RubyT
I'm so saddened by this news Steve. I know how close you were to Susan. She fought so hard and for so long and now her years of pain and suffering are done. I celebrate her brave and courageous fight. I'm very comforted that she had you in her life. It's her time to fly and soar with the angels.
lisalisette
Very lovely dedi steve.. I am sure she is smiling right now up from heaven.. I have made a dedi for Susan (at your request) and will post that one tomorrow. It is always hard to lose a close friend.. My prayers for her and everyone who knew her. My condelences.
vaggabondd
I only knew her slightly mostly through her work. in the depths of her soul she was a artist. very nice dedi my friend
evielouise
I just made one for susan and put it on FB where she was most of the time when she felt ok,I will upload it here asap:she must have had a feeling something was not right because a few days ago on a private message she said she had strange feelings in her body different "I think she said(our body talks to us I told her ) I'm very sad however,she would have kept suffering steve so let us pray be happy (for a bitter word (not better !~~she is out of pain ,she was on life /breathing support she wouldn't have wanted it that way we all kow her too well:Last conversation on the phone with susan when I was going home to see my sister (who now has a brain tumor' DAM')) I'm pissed susan prayed for her imagine that?? easy too imagine when it's susan god bless RIP our lil sis:
Crudelitas
Oh, that is such a sad news again ... It must be hard for her son so soon after the other to lose a parent. My thoughts are with him and I wish him the strength to get through this difficult time. Wonderful work and words, Steve.
drifterlee
It's very sad, Steve, Beautiful dedi!
romanceworks
A beautiful dedication for Susan, from your broken heart. I knew her struggles would be much greater when she suddenly lost her beloved husband a year ago, and now they are reunited. Susan was a courageous and beautiful person, filled with love, for others and nature. I will miss her very much.
barryjeffer
A loss for everyone who knew her... Beautiful dedication Steve.
Richardphotos
my heart sank when I read the news this morning. Susan had been a friend to so many for years. without actually meeting, she seemed like true friend even when my friend was in Louisville Veterans hospital she offered to go visit him if she made it to Louisivlle
Cimaira
My thoughts and prayers are with you and Susan's family. Such sad news, I am so sorry for your pain.
Faemike55
Steve, My heart breaks for you and the loss you feel right now. it is very hard to lose a friend and fellow artist. My thoughts and prayers to Susan's family and all who knew her and loved her. On a good note, Steve, as you pointed out, she is no longer in pain and is in heaven.
RodS
Oh, this is so sad _ I feel your pain, brother, I know well the feelings you are experiencing now. You and Susan's family are in my thoughts and prayers. I did not know Susan as well as you, but she seemed like a kind and wonderful lady. Throughout her battle, she always remained strong and optimistic. Her photos are beautiful, and her spirit is equally beautiful. And we have both to carry in our hearts. You need not ask forgiveness, Steve - there is nothing to forgive, my friend.
vitachick
Beautiful tribute to your dear friend...My prayers are with her family..
donnena
Condolences on the loss of your friend, Steve!! Take comfort in the memories you have of her, and by all means call her son! He will love to hear from other folks who loved his mom! GOOD job! Lovely image!
mrestey
Though I didn't know her Steve, my heart is breaking just from reading your words. I often shed tears for people like this who pass though I don't even know them. Last week we lost Shana, this week Bush. So sad. Are are TOO a kind person Steve - at least as far as I have ever seen from things you post here at Rendo. You never have anything bad to say to others and always express concern for fellow members. I grieve with thee.
fluffykatt
Beautiful thoughts, Steve. My thoughts & prayers are with Susan's family & friends. Free Spirit I know my spirit has been set free. It soars like a dove in flight. There are no bonds that hold my heart, I’m guided by my Master’s light. Angels are my companions as I fly, A free spirit through the night. I behold all the essence of freedom, Heaven’s gate is now in my sight. I can no longer feel my many pains, But a great joy down in my soul. I know the love of my Lord, My feeble body has been made whole. I look down as my spirit soars, While a brief sadness my heart feels. Then looking back toward heaven, Freedom from worldly strife is revealed. I have not left the ones I love, I’m waiting for the day we again meet. Oh yes! On that wondrous day, The greatest freedom we all shall greet. Copyright @ 2004 M. Doris Fuller
dreaming_banshee
I'm very sorry about your friend. Cancer is a terrible illness and I know she was very sick. The angel is a beautiful memorial image.
Palaemon
Beautiful homage.
pchef
beautiful dedicace for your friend, I'm sorry fir her.
farmerC
Thanks for these words and strength with the loss of your friend. this work is shining.
adrie
Beautiful dedi for our great friend and your little sis Susan Blush. Dear Steve my prayers are also will be going to you my friend and also to her son and friends.....Know my friend, she is in heaven and dont have pain anny more.....hugs Adrie.
coyoteviper
we have lost an angel, but heaven has gained. All we can do is march forward and wait the day we too go there and see our loved ones again. God bless you my friend, all my prayers be with you.
vechtdalcollege
So sad and terrible this message and what a story, I'me touched! I will pray for her and her son and family, may she rest in piece now! I hope you will doing well and strong in whatever you do.Go on with your beautiful work like this, it will help you through this dark periode,I'me sure. Gr.Rudy.
SidheRoseGraphics
A beautiful dedication and sharing of feelings, Steve. Don't apologize. We understand. This has to be very hard for her son after losing his father last year :(
zaigodou
I'm sad too!!!! Beautiful homage!!!!!