the tragic news hits fae valley and Zlata is very heartbroken. she knows how bad that c word can be cause her son Zakk is going through it also. one day i will post a image of his comeback from it. i have not used him in awhile cause of it's nature and should have never wrote that into my Zlata series. Zlata stepped in and wanted me to post this before the one i had done on Saturday. i so much appreciate the visit and the enormous great sympathy you all have shared in the loss of a most wonderful lady here at rendo. Susan/Blush. i know she is smiling above and maybe crying a bit in the way so many of us feel in the loss of her. it still hurts mega lots, with all my probs in my life, i so feel lost as if someone tied a lead weight on me and tossed me in a lake. i still await a deposit from unemployment. when i first called 7 1/2 weeks ago they said it could take up to 4 weeks, so i called in 4 weeks, oh, that should take 6 weeks. so i call again. oh, that is taking 7 weeks maybe 8, crap, get it right guys! it will be 8 weeks on tuesday of next week. thank goodness i have food stamp program or i would not be eating much, but my dear mother would be helping me out as she always does. my dear mother was shocked in Susans passing and cried herself, cause Susan gave alot of support when she had colon cancer three years ago and is a survivor at it, but i DO NOT trust Cancer, that crap can creep back at anytime. and dear Susan went through that. if you read her homepage she mentions how she was a survivor too breast Cancer years ago. i also tried calling a few times to her son Bruce in her home state of Kentucky, all i got was a answering service, i think the number i have is for a cell phone and not a home phone. i left a few messages and told Bruce i would try in a few days and allow some healing time. i also sent a card on Sunday, just wish i could afford flowers for her, she so much loved them. but she is in the grace of the lord in heaven and walks in the most beautiful gardens ever with her caring and wonderful husband Danny. and most of all she no longer has to suffer from that dreaded C word. we love and miss you lots my lil sis. i thought i was a few years older then her, but she is two years older then i. many thanks again for reading, your blessing for her and myself. so love you all. lol Steve a poem another friend posted earlier i liked so much for dear Susan.. I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away. I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves washed it away. I wrote your name in my heart, and forever it will stay. (by Jessica Blade)