I thought to share this with you..

My mother is ill and will probably be going to an auspice soon if she lasts that long. I have lived with her most of my life so I will miss her very much.

Having her become suddenly ill brings another ugly situation of no roof over my head and with a low income. NYC men shelters are dangerous places. Can not depend on family for any financial help nor shelter. Got to get rid of tonnes of stuff by the end of this month and might also have to give up my pets.. My internet access will end soon.  May have some internet access later on..

 At this moment it seems like I have no place to go.. Just for today... things could change. I'll keep my mind open.. I have not allowed my self to feel any emotions over my mom's inevitable passing.. I'm too fearful and anxious over having no shelter.. I have never been in this situation before. At my age is rough..

I used to be too proud and now I will except donations...  I am hoping I'll be able to connect from time to time..  If the worst happens and I loose the ability to connect with Rendo again, I will remember everyone here at the Bryce Forum now and from years pass very fondly...

Thank you all..

with reverence

Tom
Newhawks@full-moon.com

Very sorry to hear this news.

Please keep me posted..prayers and warm thoughts coming your way.

Thank you....

Tom...you know my feelings from the Coord. Forum

I am so sorry to hear this.
Wishing you all the strength and hope for better times.

Corrie

Hi Tom271,

Sorry to hear that.

I have been in a similar situation, relying on one person and once this one moved out.... Rent was too high, no savings so I moved to a cheaper place and 10 (frugal) years later it looks much better.

Don't give up !

Tom, I'm so sorry to hear of your dilemma and your mom's impending passing. Four years ago I was going through a similar situation with my mom. With everything happening so fast and things coming at you from all directions and all at once you won't have time to take it all in for a little while and it would be natural for you to feel overwhelmed by it all. Keep in mind that this is the way of it. That nature will take it's course and given time, things will begin to normalize for you. It is strange or some may say a form of Devine intervention but somehow things always manage to work themselves out and often for the better. Talk to the good people of hospice because they see these situations everyday and would know how to steer you in the right direction. Incorporate their help and facilitate the social services and remember that pride holds no place in survival. Allow yourself time to grieve and remember your mother well and allow her thought to guide you to a better place. God speed my friend.

My mother passed away this morning Wed. 22, at 2:40 am..   I remain a little numb..

I am glad it is over and that there was no need to prolong her pain in an hospice/nursing home...   My next task is to find a home... or safe shelter...  Or play squatter in this rented home for six months..  I have a problem coping with the latter..

Bobby, the move to Arizona could turnout to be a shocker emotionally for me.. If you care to hear my reasoning send me your email and we could talk... 

Quest:  thank you for your thoughts....

and thanks to a couple of special people who donated.....

:-(
So sorry.

Corrie

Oh man, this is a sad time for you indeed.  My prayers are with you.  Rely on God.  He will not put more on you than you can handle.  My long distant and heartfelt hug to you.  Be strong.

Very sad news.

My sincere condolences.

You are in my prayers.

Take care.

As I posted in the Coordinators forum...

Thank you so much everyone for your kind words..   My heart is broken over her passing... and I'm also glad it is over, she is no longer suffering pain...  It was also hard on the family watching her become weaker...

Take care mate.

Best wishes to you.  My parents are elderly and it is getting more difficult to care for them, so you have my sympathy for what you have been going through.  So sorry for your loss, and hope that you find a solution for your housing situation.

Quote - Best wishes to you.  My parents are elderly and it is getting more difficult to care for them, so you have my sympathy for what you have been going through.  So sorry for your loss, and hope that you find a solution for your housing situation.

I know what you mean it is tough with aging parents but you'll get through...

As for my housing situation... I have no other alternative but to squatter the apartment.

and find a job quick..  not easy these days....