to some wonderful friends I have made on 'rosity. I apologise for not responding to you all individually, but that would be too hard a task for me to do. Therefore, this a heartfelt message to all the decent 'rosity members I have come to know and respect during my brief time here. I just had a telephone call from a friend. She is not interested in 3D graphics as such, but lurks around 'rosity to see what I have been up to. My friend knows about my past and knows what my present problem is. She asked if I knew what sort of reaction my recent posts had caused. I won't repeat my answer to her, for as she said, I was completely wrong! I had to come back to see and a part of me wishes I hadn't..! I am overwhelmed by your messages. I unashamedly admit to being reduced to yet more tears; this time of a different kind. Several of your messages, which although kind and well meaning, actually add to my grief, because of their innocent, but to me meaningful, phraseology. How can I leave you worrying about me like this? I can't! It would be totally unfair and I don't want you to remember me unkindly, for I am not an unkindly person. Several people suggested I take a break, which is what I intend to do. I always suffer from a deep depression at Christmastime, but this time it has been accelerated by some very unkind people. Somebody said that 'rosity is like an extended family and that there are always Black Sheep in most families. I see 'rosity as a micro-World; we are many people from many places with different cultures and beliefs. Unfortunately, the 'rosity World is a lot like the Real World, which has become a cruel and spiteful place. Somebody else suggested that I should practise yoga as a way of releasing my tension. Thank you for the suggestion, but I already have a preferred method. I load my dogs into the car and drive a few miles away to a beautiful spot called Formby Point, which overlooks the sea. We make our way to the top of the tallest sand dune; then with the sea in front of us and the scent of ancient pine trees wafting over us from behind... we sit, throw back our heads and howl at the Moon, or nearest star on Moonless nights. Samoyeds are great howlers and it only takes the first line of "Hi Ho, Hi Ho, it's off to work we goooooo!" to get them started. We howl until our voices break and I can shed no more tears. But... at least I am able to release some of the grief I feel. I will be back eventually. How could I stay away from so many friends for too long..? I just have to get through this phase I am in and I can only do that by myself. While I am absent, I shall continue with my personal artwork, which I find a good method of releasing and expressing my emotions. At some stage, I shall continue to build my personal website, which I am determined to launch; probably and hopefully in the New Year. Some of what I am going through at the moment will be explained on my website, in a dedication to a very special person; my brother, who I miss so much and without whom, I am only half the person we used to be. A few personal wishes: Please... don't worry about me. I WILL come through this. No more messages... they are not needed. I know already what the kinder of you would say. Continue with your artwork; be it good or bad and remember... that the newbies and those who aren't quite as self assured as most of you, appreciate a little encouragement now and then. Enjoy your Christmas wherever and however you celebrate it. Be kind to each other, both in the 'rosity World and in the Real World. As a famous Irish comedian used to say at the end of his shows... "May your Gods go with you". Best wishes, lots of love and peace, ziggie PS Don't worry about my little furry friends... I am sure I will be able to revive them. And... hey... I will have to come back... to see what you all get up to with Anton's pussy cat. Bet you all, you get one for Christmas!

I believe it was Soloman the Wise that said: There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven - A time to give birth, and a time to die; A time to plant, and a time to uproot what is panted. A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to tear down, and a time to build up. A time to weep, and a time to laugh; A time to mourn, and a time to dance, A time to throw stones, and a time to gather stones; A time to embrace, and a time to shun embracing. A time to search, and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep, and a time to throw away. A time to tear apart, and a time to sew together; A time to be silent, and a time to speak. A time to love, and a time to hate; A time for war, and a time for peace. Whatever time this is for you, I wish you the best - and I look forward to the time for laughter again.

Thanks for the words, ziggie. Hope you come back soon.

(: we will miss you, ziggie, but I do understand. Take care and Happy Holidays to you and your family. I am more a "lurker" here, and only reply, every now and then, but I have always enjoyed your images, your comments,and I am always sorry to see someone wanting to leave because of somebody else's selfish and hurtful deeds. So sorry that this has happened to you, but hopefully, you can take a break, and come back, feeling "good" about being here again. genny

peace to you

Take care. See you soon.

See ya soon Ziggy :)

Best Wishes to you Ziggy! Please take care and come back soon! :-)

Howl for me while you're out there. Take care and see you soon. Marque

Take care Ziggy, looking forward to when you will be able to return

Please return feeling hopefully happier and refreshed. I too go through a bad time when all about me are thinking of festive fun, so have some idea of what you are going through. My friends here at R'osity have been here for me and I know they will be here for you. Keep your pecker up.

Well, there goes the legend of the howling sand dunes. No X File there... Let it all out and be free. Remember, we care. See you soon. Q

Ziggie, I am not sure where Formby Point is. But one day, across the water, I have a feeling you will hear me howling with my own dogs, and I will hear you. What I'm trying to say is that this is a dark time for a lot of people, myself included. Maybe the darkest time ever in my life. And it helps to hear in the words of a stranger, an echo of a well-loved song. Thank you for your beautiful, thoughtful post. Your parting deed here was a very good one. You will be in the prayers of this stranger. Come back to us when you can. Kimberly

Please take care of yourself ziggie. I personally understand your condition. Just take things one day at a time and the sun comes out again :o) Laurie