BIO
Hi there (LOL) this is me Susan This was about 41/2 yrs ago I still look the same only my hair is shorter:) I have been married for 25yrs to Danny and have a son Bruce 31,by my first husband, I am also owned by my wonderful confidante, Winston my darling daschaund and Mere Kitty the new Persian kitten:) I am a Breast Cancer Survivor, was in remission but it has mestastized from my breast to my spine (bone cancer) Can't operate or do a biopsy even due to the location....My Dr told me if they were to go in...and do a biopsy ,they know air would touch it and well that would be all of me.........and I would soon be down for the count...my family Dr said he thought it was just wonferful..
I am currently taking chemo and stay in pain a lot of the time.....please forgive me if I don't answer your ebots right away.......Somedays I stay in bed for 2 to 3 days.....and wake up in the middle of the night crying in pain....I am trying to have a cheerful attitude with this and just thanking God I can wake up every day and try to smile and enjoy life..
I love to garden, read, take pics and play with my daschaund..I also have poems on Allpoetry.com under the name of Blushfulmoon......Would love to get them published someday....If you go visit me please tell me your from Renderosity.....Thank you for all your comments and keep me in your prayers..I need them so bad.....Oh I forgot to mention I am 52 years old....born March 25th 1955 making me an Aries..I am very true to what the astrologers say about the sign..........I make friends easy..sometimes quick tempered but cool off in a manner of minutes.....I can't stand anyone being mad at me........LOL.......I am so thankful for all the friends I have made here on Renderosity.....You are all special in my heart:)
Love all of you all
Hugs n love
Susan aka Blush
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Comments (54)
STEVIEUKWONDER
Dear Susan, please don't worry about commenting and sitting when it is obviously uncomfortable for you. You need rest my friend and first and foremost, your Doctor should be giving you a supplementary pain relief, called Oramorph in the UK. This is to keep the pain at bay, in between your regular dose, so that as soon as you feel a twinge, this liquid gets straight into your system and the pain will ease, until your next sheduled dose. As I have said before, you should be in no pain whatsoever and you should demand the liquid, (like a syrup which also contains morphine) to keep that pain to a manageable level. The crocuses look so pretty my friend. They look beautiful and I'm so glad you were able to take the picture. I'm always thinking about you, as are so many other of your friends. Stay strong Susan, but please don't feel bad if you can't manage to comment. Just keep your strength up for the more important things, like your family and your dog. Take care my friend, Steve :o)
Littlejock
Wonderful pic Susan. Im sorry so much reading your words. I hope the pills help you and our little presence and comment can help you and acompany. We have the spring here in south os Spain since many time and tomorrow I will post a special pic i have about Spring plenty of colours and light special for you. Hugs and my best whises for you. You teach me many when read you and see this gorgeous pic with all this colours. Hugs. Luis
priss117
Susan, please don't worry about commenting and sitting when you are in so much pain. You need to rest so you don't over come yourself. I agree with Steve that your Doctor should be giving you a supplementary pain relief. Your Doctor had to business telling your friend how long you have. Thats patient and doctor privacy rights and sounds like he over step that. I would look into it. Like I said before a friend of mine had cancer which her doc back then said she had 3 months and she lived with it for almost 17 yrs. My docs dont speak about me to no one even my mom without my consent. I have a blood disorder. The crocuses are beautiful. I'm thinking of you and if you even need to wrote if you can drop me a line in my box here, you can even put your email addie and we'll have a chitchat. Take care of yourself. Priss
Richardphotos
just letting us know you are alive and fighting the battle is enough. as Stevie said no need to comment.your flowers are so beautiful and they reflect your beauty and strength
CavalierLady
Attitude makes all the difference in the world! I have a niece who has survived over ten years now. She has a lot of spunk. So keep up that fighting spirit! And God Bless You! You have many who care and are praying for you, dear lady. Hugs!
MariaAJMD
This winter seems so long, it's so good to see that spring is on it's way, Thank you for this beautiful picture!!! Big squishing hugs to you and my prayers! Maria
1010
Oh my dear, sweet Susan. I pray so much for you and cry too. Please sweetie, demand that the pain medicine be increased. There is no need for all that suffering. I am amazing at your strength! I will look for an easy zip utility and send you the link. You are so precious Susan, I love you.............. Pretty photo too.
Valerie-Ducom
Im sorry to reading your words. I hope the pills help you and our little presence and comment can help you and acompany. Don't worry about commenting and sitting when you are in so much pain. I'm go praying for you my lady dear and accepts my huge hugs. Oh yes, so beautiful pictur on this flower and excellent postwork and color!! I you need , you can email or im me, all the time :) Good day and hugssssssssssssss
kjpweb
Good! Fighting spirit! Sit tight and keep plugging away! It's pretty safe to say that everyone here is rooting for you! Nice picture - they are so beautiful!
Irish
Sweet Susan, you are such a brave and courageous lady. It was so lovely to see your beautiful image and I am so sorry you are in such pain with this horrid disease. You are such a fighter and even through all this, you come up swinging! I hope you will get some relief from your pain; you must demand it, as it is necessary to make you more comfortable. You have a large family here who worry and care about you. Don't worry yourself about commenting on images when you don't feel able to as we all understand and I send you my love along with a big warm hug.
GOLDILOCKSUK
Susan I think people would forgive you anything right now what you are going through. I am so sorry for the pain you are in I hope they regulate it soon. I am amazed the doctor told your friend this here it would be just family members and if you haven't any they wouldn't say without telling you first. Fight as hard as you can my friend :) Cathy xoxoxo
sharky_
So sorry all the pain you suffer. As for your doctor, he created a conflict of interest and violated the privacy act. You are in my prayers and thoughts every day. The image here is beautiful. Aloha
jadench
My wife asked yesterday if I had seen anything posted by you lately. And then this morning when we get up there is a new spark of life. The crocus are wonderful and a new beginning of life. Keep up the fight! Still wish there were something we could all do to help you in your time of need but I guess the words will have to do. Also, don't dwell on the bad news of the doctors. If they don't find SOMETHING wrong then they aren't making any money! LOL. Just keep up that positive outlook and you will come through this just fine. Remember that all of us on here are pulling for you!
shahlaa
Hello my dear sweet Sis...I not only feel your pain, I heard it when we spoke on the phone...I agree that they need to be giving you something else to help keep the pain away or at least lessen it so that you are comfortable...I also heard the fight in your sweet voice when we spoke...You're a fighter Sis, you have fought it for so long and I don't have a doubt that you will continue fighting...there are so many people who love you and are going through this with you...you are an exceptional woman Sis nd I love you so much...don't you worry about not being able to comment, we know you will be here when you're able to but I want you to know that even on those days when you can't be, you're still in our thoughts and in our prayers always...you just concentrate on getting well and tell this horrid disease it's in for one heck of a fight and you keep on fighting...we're all in this fight with you, you're NOT alone my precious friend...Get well Sis.
romanceworks
Susan, thanks for sharing what you are going through. You are one the most courageious people I know, and my heart and hope is very much with you. You have your family, your Winston, your many friends, and so many reasons to keep your faith and keep fighting. Please don't worry about commenting. I hope you get help with the pain soon and that this will be a healing Spring for you. Those crocus are just so lovely. Hugs - CC
RubyT
Ahh, Susan, thank you for sharing your fight with us all. You're an inspiration. You have us all here. No need for you to post replies on our images, I hope you wander the galleries with the idea that the beauty here is a fountain of hope. You are in my prayers!
Burpee
check out Pau D'Arco tea or pills. You may find that you like it. Your crocuses are beautiful and fresh. You have so much to live for and I love your spirit and attitude...it makes all the difference. I wish you well and send good thoughts.
MrsLubner
Well, you know I've been bugging you to post and look at the fine job you did! I love the look of spring in this. Now, if we can just get you going on the Poser stuff,I'll shut up altogether. LOL I know you will do fine, Susan. I do wish they could shut down the pain for you so at least you can relax while you fight this but perhaps they'll think of something else soon. Call on me any time for anything. You know I'm here for you day or night.
awadissk
Excellent work very well done!!!!!!!!! and get well soon we want to see more images from you!
MeredithWilson
Dear Susanne, My heart goes out to you so deeply!! I hope there is something that can be done to help with the pain and to relieve your discomfort. I'm not a doctor so I can offer much specific help, but I do know that you really need to stay on them and make them help you!! Stay strong and keep fighting! That's the msot important thing - keep your resolve strong - stay strong - and never give in!!!!! Your mental and empotional attitude count for a lot in your treatment!! Keep the "dosage" of that high!!!! Very lovely picture of the gorgeous crocuses!!! Excellent photography and a sure sign of spring!!!! We all are here for you and you remain in our thoughts, hearts, and prayers!!!!!! Love ya!!! Meredith
Silkylady
Your image is really pretty. Love it. I do hope they can find something to ease the pain. I saw two people in my in-law side of the family, go through this, and I know it is a bummer. My thoughts are with you. Huggs...Silkylady...
DennisReed
My your Spring be eternal! Lovely image Susan! Praying for better times for you! God Bless!
TheAnimaGemini
Susan you are such a strong and wonderfull person. You share your pain, feelings whith us. This is so wonderfull. I love you for this a lot. I pray for for you hon and you are allways in my thoughts. Wish you just the best for your fight. I know you win this fight. :) God bless you hon.
shanpoo
Okay after reading this it has taken me around 3 hours to compose myself to write a comment. I am so mad at this cruel disease! Maybe that anger will help you fight. What you are going through has hit me hard. I know we have never met face to face but you are my sis! If I could I would take all your pain away! I think you should really write down the information that Steve is telling you maybe it will help! You are so strong Susan and a real trooper in my eyes. Everyone loves you! My prescription for the day is to rest and take it easy and dont ever worry about needing to comment. However, I think you do it to try and feel normalcy. So the doctor says if are having a good day live life to the fullest. Biggest of hugs sis, Shannon ;}
rainbows
Such beauty in your Spring flowers, Susan. I am so sorry you are hurting so much.. Hugs and prayer on the air for you always my sweet, sweet Sis. You are in my thoughts, my prayers, all the time. Hope the pain eases when you get suplementary pain relief.. Thank you for posting this beautiful work.. That took such effort from you.. Keep fighting, we are here, fighting along side you... Gentle Hugs. Di.
Syltermermaid
You are one of the most admirable person I ever met Susan!!!! You have such a strenght and you has to go through so much, but still you find the time to think about us!!! But never worry about not commenting, we all know that we are in your thoughts like you are in ours!!! Concentrate only at yourself, your family and your fight against this terrible illness!!!! You are always in my thoughts and prayers!! You have for ever a place in my heart!!! Big Hugs Ute
GiMi53
Don't give up Susan... continue your courageous fight against the pain... I'd like to join the many friends and send you my true support ! Super well presented crocus picture ! A sign of Spring, a sign of renaissance...
davidoblad
Hi Susan, I know a lady that has been told a number of times that her days are numbered. But she is still alive and kicking many decades past her predicted check out time. It can depend greatly on the attitude of the ill person. A positive person tends to out survive a negative person. The power of positive thinking! For this reason, many doctors relay bad news to next of kin, rather than the patient. Someone needs to know, to make arrangments just in case, without causing extra fear in the patient. I had the same thing happen to me in regards to my late father. I can't say whether or not I agree with the practice. I think, for myself, I'd rather know, but then I'm not afraid of death, so the news wouldn't have an adverse effect on me. I would spend every minute as happy as possible.. and who knows.. that happiness may put off the end for a very long time. So put your affairs in order, just in case, but then spend every minute as happy as you can manage. Who knows, that positive attitude may just be enough to beat this thing, once again, as you already have so many times in the past. Anyway, wonderful image here Susan. Please know I think about you every day and and offer my very best wishes for a painless recovery. Hugs from Dave :^)
TallPockets
Such a lovely pic from a MOST lovely and kind soul. May PEACE fill you within. My best, T.P.
watifeye
Susan it is wonderful to hear that you are fighting this with such a positive attitude, take Steves advise and demand that you get all the pain relief medicines that you are entitled to. You will then be stronger both physically and mentally, and with strength of mind it will give you that added incentive to fight this terrible thing even harder and overcome it. Like everyone here, my prayers and thoughts are with you and hopefully they will help you. Everyone understands what you are going through and no one expects you to overdo things by leaving comments. It is wonderful to see you post this beautiful picture of the crocus and that makes us all happy that you were able to do so. We look forward to seeing many many more beautiful images from you well into the future. God Bless Susan and thank you for sharing this with us all. Hugs.